old man had spified some turpentine； and I accidentally dropped my cigarette and it caught。 I thought I'd put it out； but apparently it flared up again。 Do you see？〃
She nodded。 〃I thought it was something like that。〃
〃That's the way it happened； I guess。 But painting the picture was another matter。 I don't know how I expected to get away with it； and the chances are I would've chickened out at the last minute anyway。 What I'll do is throw the picture away； and then rewrite the article altogether； using the information I've actually got。〃
〃He told us lots of interesting things。〃
〃Sure he did。〃
There was a dirt road on the right； leading into a thick stand of pines。 I made the turn； shifted down to second gear； but kept up the engine speed because of the sand。
〃Where are you going？〃
〃I'm going to drive back in here well off the highway and burn the painting。〃
〃You can wait until morning； can't you？〃
〃No。 I think that the sooner I get rid of it the better。 If I kept it I might change my mind again。 It would be possible； you know； to get away with it…〃
〃No； it wouldn't； James；〃 she said crisply。
The sandy road； after more than a mile； ended in a small clearing。 The clearing was filled with knee…high grass； and we were pletely surrounded by second…growth slash pine。 It would be another two years； at least； before these trees would be tall enough to cut。 I left the lights on and cut the engine。 Without another word I got out of the car； opened the trunk with the key； and picked up the tire iron。 It was about ten inches long； quite hefty； and the flattened end； although it wasn't sharp； was thin enough to make a good cutting edge。 Rounding the car on Berenice's side； I brought the heavy iron down on her head。
〃Ooauh！〃 She expelled her breath； clasped both hands over her head； and turned her face toward me。 Her eyes were wide and staring； but her face was expressionless。 I hadn't hit her hard enough； or I had miscalculated the thickness of her hair； piled on top of her head； which had cushioned the blow。 I hit her on top of the head again； much harder this time； and she slumped down in the seat。
I opened the door； grabbed the thick collar of her polo coat； and dragged her out of the car。 She was inert； unbelievably heavy； and her left leg was still in the front seat。 I was working one…handed； still clutching the tire iron in my right hand； and trying to free her leg from the car door； when she convulsed； roiled over； and came up off the ground； head down； butting me in the stomach like a goat。
Caught by surprise； I fell backward and my shoulder hit a splintered tree stump。 At the same time my left elbow banged against the ground sharply； right on the ulna bone。 My right shoulder felt as if it were on fire； and crazy prickles from my banged funny bone danced inside my forearm。 I dropped the tire iron； rubbed my right shoulder with the fingers of my left hand； and the pain in my elbow and shoulder gradually subsided。 Through the trees； and getting farther away every second； Berenice's voice screamed shrilly。 I picked up the tire iron。
I turned off the headlights and started after her； judging direction by the sound of her screams； which were growing fainter； in the dark forest。 Berenice ran awkwardly； like most women； and she was hampered by the knee…length coat。 I didn't think she could run far； but I was unable to catch up with her。 I tried to run myself； but after tripping over a stump and sprawling full length on the damp ground； I settled for a fast walk。
The screaming stopped； and so did I。 The abrupt silence startled me and； for the first time； I was frightened。 I had to find her。 If she got away； everything was over for me… everything。
I moved ahead； walking slower now； searching every foot of ground； now that my eyes had bee adjusted to the dim light。 A light mist hovered a hundred feet above the trees； but there was a moon； and I could see a little better with every passing moment。 The trees thinned out and the wet ground began to get mushy。 I was on the edge of a swamp； and after another fifty yards or so； I came to the edge of a lake of black； stagnant water。 I knew Berenice well enough to know that she wouldn't have plunged into that inky water。 The way was easier going toward the left； and I took it； figuring that she would do the same。
I found her a few minutes later； catching sight of her light…colored coat。 She was in a prone position； with her legs spread awkwardly； partially hidden under a spreading dogwood tree。 Afraid to touch her； I rolled her over on her back。 A pale shaft of moonlight filtered through the tree branches； lighting her bloody face and wide staring eyes。
I didn't know whether she was dead or not； but I had to make certain。 There was one thing I did know。 I wouldn't have been able to hit her again。 As I knelt down beside her and opened her coat； an aroma of Patou's Joy filled my nostrils with loss。 I put my head down on her chest and listened for a heartbeat。 Nothing。 Berenice was dead； but my blows on her head hadn't killed her。 She had died from shock。 No one； mortally wounded； would have been able to run so far。 On the other hand； both of us for a few moments had been gifted with superhuman strength。 She was a big woman； stronger than hell； and she had been fighting for her life。
But so had I。
I dragged her to the edge of the water and wedged her body under a fallen tree that was half in and half out of the swamp。 By leaning dead branches and by piling brush over the unsubmerged part of the tree； she was pletely hidden from view。 Debierue knew that she was with me； and if she were to be found； and if he learned that she had been killed； he would tell Cassidy immediately。 That is； he would tell Cassidy if her body was found before he received the tear sheets of my article on his American Harvest period。 He would be so delighted by my article he wouldn't risk mentioning Berenice's name to anyone。 His reputation； as well as mine； depended upon that article。 But there would be time； plenty of time。 Months； perhaps years； would pass before her body was found。
Suddenly I was weak and dispirited。 All of my strength disappeared。 I leaned against the nearest tree and vomited my dinner…the corn； the tomatoes and okra； the stringy chunks of sirloin； the biscuits； everything。 Panting and sobbing until I caught my breath； I returned to the dogwood tree and picked up my tire iron。 It had my fingerprints on it； and in case I had a flat tire on my way to New York； I would need it again。
I started back toward the car； and after walking for five minutes or so I discovered that I was lost。 I panicked and began to run。 I tripped and fell； banging my head against a tree； scratching a painful gash in my forehead。 As Freud said； there are no accidents。 Fighting down my panic by taking long deep breaths； I calmed down further by forcing myself to sit quietly on the damp ground； with my back against a tree； and by smoking a cigarette down to the cork tip。 I was all right。 Everything was going to be all right。
Calmer now； although my hands were still trembling； I managed to retrace my path back to the swamp and Berenice。 I now had a sense of direction。 I started back in what I thought was the general direction of the car； and hit the sandy road； missing the clearing and the car by about fifty yards。 My face was flushed with heat； and I was shivering at the same time with cold。 Before setting out； I put up the canvas top； and then kicked over the engine。
Two weeks later； back in New York； when I was cleaning out the car in order to sell it； I found one of Berenice's fingers； or a part of one…the first two joints and the Chen Yued fingernail。 She must have got it lopped off when she had put her hands over her head in the car。 I wrapped the finger in a handkerchief and put it safely away。 Perhaps a day would e； I thought； when I would be able to look at this finger without fear； pain； or remorse。
4
The photograph of Debierue 〃reading〃 the flaming copy of the Miami Herald； which illustrated my article in Fine Arts： The Americas was republished in Look and Newsweek； and in the fine arts section of the Sunday New York Times。 UPI； after dickering with my agent； finally bought the photo and sent it out on the wire to their subscribers。 The money I made from this photo provided me with my first tailor…made suit。 Coat and trousers； four hundred dollars。
I had made one side trip off the superhighway to Baltimore； on my way back to New York； where I checked Berenice's luggage in two lockers inside the Greyhound bus station （including her handbag and traveler's checks； knowing that her mother could use this money someday； if and when the bags were ever claimed）。 Except for this brief stopover； I drove straight through to the city。
There were five message slips in my office telling me to telephone Joseph Cassidy； collect； immediately； so I called him before I did anything else。
〃Did you get the picture？〃 he asked。
〃Yes； of course。〃
〃Good！ Good！ Hold it for a few days before sending it down。 I want to get Mr。 Debierue settled in a good nursing home； you see…he doesn't know