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　　　　　Catherine　cheerfully　complied；　and　being　properly　equipped；



was　more　impatient　than　ever　to　be　at　the　pump…room；



that　she　might　inform　herself　of　General　Tilneys　lodgings；



for　though　she　believed　they　were　in　Milsom　Street；



she　was　not　certain　of　the　house；　and　Mrs。　Allen's　wavering



convictions　only　made　it　more　doubtful。　　To　Milsom　Street　she



was　directed；　and　having　made　herself　perfect　in　the　number；



hastened　away　with　eager　steps　and　a　beating　heart



to　pay　her　visit；　explain　her　conduct；　and　be　forgiven；



tripping　lightly　through　the　church…yard；　and　resolutely



turning　away　her　eyes；　that　she　might　not　be　obliged　to　see



her　beloved　Isabella　and　her　dear　family；　who；　she　had



reason　to　believe；　were　in　a　shop　hard　by。　　She　reached



the　house　without　any　impediment；　looked　at　the　number；



knocked　at　the　door；　and　inquired　for　Miss　Tilney。　



The　man　believed　Miss　Tilney　to　be　at　home；　but　was　not



quite　certain。　　Would　she　be　pleased　to　send　up　her　name？



She　gave　her　card。　　In　a　few　minutes　the　servant　returned；



and　with　a　look　which　did　not　quite　confirm　his　words；



said　he　had　been　mistaken；　for　that　Miss　Tilney　was



walked　out。　　Catherine；　with　a　blush　of　mortification；



left　the　house。　　She　felt　almost　persuaded　that　Miss



Tilney　was　at　home；　and　too　much　offended　to　admit　her；



and　as　she　retired　down　the　street；　could　not　withhold



one　glance　at　the　drawing…room　windows；　in　expectation



of　seeing　her　there；　but　no　one　appeared　at　them。　



At　the　bottom　of　the　street；　however；　she　looked　back　again；



and　then；　not　at　a　window；　but　issuing　from　the　door；



she　saw　Miss　Tilney　herself。　　She　was　followed　by



a　gentleman；　whom　Catherine　believed　to　be　her　father；



and　they　turned　up　towards　Edgar's　Buildings。　



Catherine；　in　deep　mortification；　proceeded　on　her　way。　



She　could　almost　be　angry　herself　at　such　angry　incivility；



but　she　checked　the　resentful　sensation；　she　remembered



her　own　ignorance。　　She　knew　not　how　such　an　offence　as　hers



might　be　classed　by　the　laws　of　worldly　politeness；　to　what



a　degree　of　unforgivingness　it　might　with　propriety　lead；



nor　to　what　rigours　of　rudeness　in　return　it　might　justly



make　her　amenable。　







　　　　　Dejected　and　humbled；　she　had　even　some　thoughts　of　not



going　with　the　others　to　the　theatre　that　night；　but　it



must　be　confessed　that　they　were　not　of　long　continuance；



for　she　soon　recollected；　in　the　first　place；　that　she　was



without　any　excuse　for　staying　at　home；　and；　in　the　second；



that　it　was　a　play　she　wanted　very　much　to　see。　



To　the　theatre　accordingly　they　all　went；　no　Tilneys



appeared　to　plague　or　please　her；　she　feared　that；



amongst　the　many　perfections　of　the　family；　a　fondness



for　plays　was　not　to　be　ranked；　but　perhaps　it　was　because



they　were　habituated　to　the　finer　performances　of　the



London　stage；　which　she　knew；　on　Isabella's　authority；



rendered　everything　else　of　the　kind　〃quite　horrid。〃



She　was　not　deceived　in　her　own　expectation　of　pleasure；



the　comedy　so　well　suspended　her　care　that　no　one；



observing　her　during　the　first　four　acts；　would　have　supposed



she　had　any　wretchedness　about　her。　　On　the　beginning



of　the　fifth；　however；　the　sudden　view　of　Mr。　Henry　Tilney



and　his　father；　joining　a　party　in　the　opposite　box；



recalled　her　to　anxiety　and　distress。　　The　stage　could



no　longer　excite　genuine　merrimentno　longer　keep　her



whole　attention。　　Every　other　look　upon　an　average　was



directed　towards　the　opposite　box；　and；　for　the　space



of　two　entire　scenes；　did　she　thus　watch　Henry　Tilney；



without　being　once　able　to　catch　his　eye。　　No　longer　could



he　be　suspected　of　indifference　for　a　play；　his　notice　was



never　withdrawn　from　the　stage　during　two　whole　scenes。　



At　length；　however；　he　did　look　towards　her；　and　he



bowedbut　such　a　bow！　No　smile；　no　continued　observance



attended　it；　his　eyes　were　immediately　returned　to　their



former　direction。　　Catherine　was　restlessly　miserable；



she　could　almost　have　run　round　to　the　box　in　which　he　sat



and　forced　him　to　hear　her　explanation。　　Feelings　rather



natural　than　heroic　possessed　her；　instead　of　considering



her　own　dignity　injured　by　this　ready　condemnationinstead



of　proudly　resolving；　in　conscious　innocence；　to　show　her



resentment　towards　him　who　could　harbour　a　doubt　of　it；



to　leave　to　him　all　the　trouble　of　seeking　an　explanation；



and　to　enlighten　him　on　the　past　only　by　avoiding　his　sight；



or　flirting　with　somebody　elseshe　took　to　herself　all



the　shame　of　misconduct；　or　at　least　of　its　appearance；



and　was　only　eager　for　an　opportunity　of　explaining



its　cause。　







　　　　　The　play　concludedthe　curtain　fellHenry　Tilney



was　no　longer　to　be　seen　where　he　had　hitherto　sat；　but　his



father　remained；　and　perhaps　he　might　be　now　coming　round



to　their　box。　　She　was　right；　in　a　few　minutes　he　appeared；



and；　making　his　way　through　the　then　thinning　rows；



spoke　with　like　calm　politeness　to　Mrs。　Allen　and　her　friend。　



Not　with　such　calmness　was　he　answered　by　the　latter：



〃Oh！　Mr。　Tilney；　I　have　been　quite　wild　to　speak　to　you；



and　make　my　apologies。　　You　must　have　thought　me　so　rude；



but　indeed　it　was　not　my　own　fault；　was　it；　Mrs。　Allen？



Did　not　they　tell　me　that　Mr。　Tilney　and　his　sister　were



gone　out　in　a　phaeton　together？　And　then　what　could　I　do？



But　I　had　ten　thousand　times　rather　have　been　with　you；



now　had　not　I；　Mrs。　Allen？〃











　　　　　〃My　dear；　you　tumble　my　gown；〃　was　Mrs。　Allen's　reply。　







　　　　　Her　assurance；　however；　standing　sole　as　it　did；



was　not　thrown　away；　it　brought　a　more　cordial；



more　natural　smile　into　his　countenance；　and　he　replied



in　a　tone　which　retained　only　a　little　affected　reserve：



〃We　were　much　obliged　to　you　at　any　rate　for　wishing　us



a　pleasant　walk　after　our　passing　you　in　Argyle　Street：



you　were　so　kind　as　to　look　back　on　purpose。〃







　　　　　〃But　indeed　I　did　not　wish　you　a　pleasant　walk；



I　never　thought　of　such　a　thing；　but　I　begged　Mr。　Thorpe



so　earnestly　to　stop；　I　called　out　to　him　as　soon　as　ever　I



saw　you；　now；　Mrs。　Allen；　did　not　Oh！　You　were　not　there；



but　indeed　I　did；　and；　if　Mr。　Thorpe　would　only　have　stopped；



I　would　have　jumped　out　and　run　after　you。〃







　　　　　Is　there　a　Henry　in　the　world　who　could　be　insensible



to　such　a　declaration？　Henry　Tilney　at　least　was　not。　



With　a　yet　sweeter　smile；　he　said　everything　that　need



be　said　of　his　sister's　concern；　regret；　and　dependence



on　Catherine's　honour。　　〃Oh！　Do　not　say　Miss　Tilney　was



not　angry；〃　cried　Catherine；　〃because　I　know　she　was；



for　she　would　not　see　me　this　morning　when　I　called；



I　saw　her　walk　out　of　the　house　the　next　minute　after



my　leaving　it；　I　was　hurt；　but　I　was　not　affronted。　



Perhaps　you　did　not　know　I　had　been　there。〃







　　　　　〃I　was　not　within　at　the　time；　but　I　heard　of　it



from　Eleanor；　and　she　has　been　wishing　ever　since　to



see　you；　to　explain　the　reason　of　such　incivility；



but　perhaps　I　can　do　it　as　well。　　It　was　nothing　more　than



that　my　fatherthey　were　just　preparing　to　walk　out；



and　he　being　hurried　for　time；　and　not　caring　to　have　it



put　offmade　a　point　of　her　being　denied。　　That　was　all；



I　do　assure　you。　　She　was　very　much　vexed；　and　meant



to　make　her　apology　as　soon　as　possible。〃







　　　　　Catherine's　mind　was　greatly　eased　by　this　information；



yet　a　something　of　solicitude　remained；　from　which　sprang



the　following　question；　thoroughly　artless　in　itself；



though　rather　distressing　to　the　gentleman：　〃But；　Mr。　Tilney；



why　were　you　less　generous　than　your　sister？　If　she　felt



such　confidence　in　my　good　intentions；　and　could　suppose



it　to　be　only　a　mistake；　why　should　you　be　so　ready



to　take　offence？〃







　　　　　〃Me！　I　take　offence！〃







　　　　　〃Nay；　I　am　sure　by　your　look；　when　you　came　into



the　box；　you　were　angry。〃







　　　　　〃I　angry！　I　could　have　no　right。〃







　　　　　〃Well；　nobody　would　have　thought　you　had　no　right



who　saw　your　face。〃　He　replied　by　asking　her　to　make



room　for　him；　and　talking　of　the　play。　







　　　　　He　remained　with　them　some　time；　and　was　only　too



agreeable　for　Catherine　to　be　contented　when　he　went　away。　



Before　they　parted；　however；　it　was　agreed　that　the　projected



walk　should　be　taken　as　soon　as　possible；　and；　setting　aside



the　misery　of　his　quitting　their　box；　she　was；　upon　the　whole；



left　one　of　the　happiest　creatures　in　the　world。