ted there。 This time she didn't mpve from the room in which she lay but luxuriated in its excesses； rising and falling like the veils around the bed； and on the same smoky breeze。 Once in a while she heard some sound from the courtyards far below and allowed her eyes to flutter open for the sheer lazy pleasure of closing them again； and once she was woken by the sound of Concupiscentia's reedy voice as she sang in a distant room。 Though the words were inprehensible； Jude knew it was a lament； full of yearning for things that had passed and could never be again； and she slipped back into sleep with the thought that sad songs were the same in any language； whether Gaelic； Navaho； or Patashoquan。 Like the glyph of her body； this melody was essential； a sign that could pass between Dominions。
The music and the scent she lay upon were potent narcotics； and after a few melancholy verses of Concupiscentia's song she was no longer sure whether she was asleep； and hearing the lament in her dreams； or awake； but freed by Quaisoir's perfumes and wafted up into the folds of silks above her bed like a dreamer。 Whichever it was； she scarcely cared。 The sensations were pleasurable； and she'd had too little pleasure of late。
Then came proof that this was indeed a dream。 A doleful phantom appeared at the door and stood watching her through the veils。 She knew him even before he drew close to the bed。 This was not a face she'd thought of much hi recent times； so it was somewhat strange that she'd conjured him； but conjure him she had； and there was no denying the erotic charge she felt at his dreamed presence。 It was Gentle； perfectly remembered； his expression troubled the way it so often was； his hands stroking the veils as though they were her legs and could be parted with caresses；
〃I didn't think you'd be here；〃 he said to her。 His voice was raw； and his expression as full of loss as Concupis…centia's song。 〃When did you e back？〃
〃A little while ago。〃
〃You smell so sweet。〃
〃I bathed。〃
〃Looking at you tike this 。。。 it makes me wish I could take you with me。〃
〃Where are you going？〃
〃Back to the Fifth；〃 he said。 〃I've e to say goodbye。〃
〃From such a distance？〃 she said。
His face broke into an immoderate smile； and she remembered； seeing it； how easy seduction had always been for him： how women had slid then… wedding rings off and their knickers down when he shone this way。 But why be churlish？ This was an erotic whimsy； not a trial。 She dreamed that he saw the accusation in her eyes； however； and was begging her forgiveness。
〃I know I've done you harm；〃 he said。
〃That's in the past；〃 she replied magnanimously。
〃Looking at you now。。。〃
〃Don't be sentimental；〃 she said。 〃I don't want sentiment。 I want you here。〃
Opening her legs； she let him see the niche she had for him。 He didn't hesitate any longer； but pulled the veil aside and climbed onto the bed； wrenching the robe from her shoulders as he put his mouth against hers。 For some reason； she'd conjured him tasting of chocolate。 Another oddity； but not one that spoiled his kisses。
She tugged at his clothes； but they were a dream invention： the dark blue fabric of his shirt； its laces and buttons in fetishistic profusion； covered in tiny scales； as though a family of lizards had shed their skins to clothe him。
She was tender from the bath； and when he let his weight descend on her； and began to work his body against hers； the scales pricked her stomach and breasts hi the most arousing way。 She wrapped her legs around him； and he acceded to her capture； his kisses being fiercer by the moment。
〃The things we've done；〃 he murmured as she kissed his face。 〃The things we've done。。。。〃
Her heart made her mind nimble； it leapt from memory to memory； back to the book she'd found in Estabrook's flat all those months before…one of Oscar's gifts from the Dominions…a manual of sexual possibilities that had shocked her at the time。 Images of its couplings appeared in her head now： intimacies that were perhaps only possible in the profligacy of sleep； unknitting both male and female and weaving them together again in new and ecstatic binations。 She put her mouth to her dream lover's ear and whispered to him that she forbade him nothing； that she wanted them to share the most extreme sensations they were capable of inventing。 He didn't grin this time； which pleased her； but raised himself up on his hands； which were plunged into the downy pillows to either side of her head； and looked down at her with some of the same sadness he'd had on his face when he'd first arrived。
〃One last time？〃 he said。
〃It doesn't have to be the last time；〃 she said。 〃I can always dream you。〃
〃And me； you；〃 he said with the greatest fondness and courtesy。
She reached down between their bodies and slipped off his belt； then pulled his trousers open with some violence； unwilling to be delayed by his buttons。 What filled her hand was as silken as the fabric hiding it was rough： still only half engorged； but all the more entertaining for that。 She stroked him。 He sighed as he bent his head towards her； licking her tips and teeth； letting his chocolate…sweetened spittle run off his tongue into her mouth。 She raised her hips and moved the groove of her sex against the underside of his erection； wetting it。 He started to murmur to her； terms of endearment； she presumed； though…like Concupis…centia's song…they were in no language she understood。 They sounded as sweet as his spittle； however； and lulled her like a cradle song； as though to slip her into a dream within a dream。 As her eyes closed she felt him raise his hips； lifting the thickness of his sex from between her labia； and with one thrust； hard enough to stab the breath from her； he entered； dropping down on top of her as he did so。
The endearments ceased； the kisses too。 He put one hand on her brow； his fingers laced into her hair； and the other at her neck； his thumb rubbing her windpipe and coaxing sighs from it。 She'd forbidden him nothing and would not rescind that invitation simply because his possession of her was so sudden。 Instead； she raised her legs and crossed them behind his back； then started to whip him on with insults。 Was this the most he could give her； the deepest he could go？ He wasn't hard enough； wasn't hot enough。 She wanted more。 His thrusts speeded up； his thumb tightening against her throat； but not so much it kept her from drawing breath and expelling it again in a fresh round of provocations。
〃I could fuck you forever；〃 he said to her； his tone halfway between devotion and threat。 〃There's nothing I can't make you do。 There's nothing I can't make you say。 I could fuck you forever。〃
This was not talk she would have weled from a flesh…and…blood lover； but in a dream it was arousing。 She let him continue in the same mode； opening her arms and legs beneath him； while he recited all that he would do to her； a litany of ambition that matched the rhythm of his hips。 The room her dream had raised around them split here and there； and another seeped in through the cracks to occupy the same space： this one darker than Quaisoir's veil…draped chamber and lit by a fire that blazed off to her left。 Her dream lover didn't fade； however； he remained with her and in her； more frenzied in his thrusts and promises than ever。 She saw him above her as if lit by the same flames that warmed her nakedness； his face knotted and sweaty； his index of desires ing between clenched teeth。 She would be his doll； his whore； his wife； his Goddess； he would fill every hole of her； forever and ever： own her； worship her； turn her inside out Hearing this； she remembered the images in Estabrook's book again； and the memory made her cells swell as if each was a tiny bud ready to burst； their petals pleasure； their scent the shouts she was making； rising off her to draw fresh adoration from him。 It came； cruel and exquisite by turns。 One moment he wanted to be her prisoner； bound to her every whim； nourished on her shit and the milk he'd win from her breasts with suckling。 The next she was less than the excrement he'd hungered for； and he was her only hope for life。 He'd resurrect her with his fuck。 He'd fill her with a fiery stream； till her eyes were washed from her head and she drowned in him。 There was more； but her cries of pleasure were mounting with every moment； and she heard less and less。 Saw less too； closing her eyes against the mingled rooms； fire…lit and veiled； letting her head fill with the geometries that always attended pleasure； forms like her glyph unraveled and reworked。
And then； just as she was reaching the first of the peaks…a range of stratospheric heights ahead…she felt him shudder and his thrusts stop。 She didn't believe he'd finished； not at first。 This was a dream； and she'd conjured him to perform the way actualities never did： to go on when lovers of flesh and blood had spilled their promises and were panting their apologies beside her。 He couldn't desert her now！ She opened her eyes。 The fire…lit chamber had gone； and the flames in Gentle's eyes had gone with it。 He had already withdrawn； and all she felt between her legs was his fingers； dabbling in the dribble he'd supplied。 He looked at