also knows that the burns； painful as they were in the weeks and months after that night； were necessary。 If not for the matches with CLOSE COVER BEFORE STRIKING written on the front； he would have died in 1408； and his end would have been unspeakable。 To a coroner it might have looked like a stroke or a heart attack； but the actual cause of death would have been much nastier。
Much nastier。
He was also lucky in having produced three popular books on ghosts and hauntings before actually running afoul of a place that is haunted…this he also knows。 Sam Farrell may not believe Mike's life as a writer is over； but Sam doesn't need to； Mike knows it for both of them。 He cannot so much as write a postcard without feeling cold all over his skin and being nauseated deep in the pit of his belly。 Sometimes just looking at a pen （or a tape recorder） will make him think： The pictures were crooked。 I tried to straighten the pictures。 He doesn't know what this means。 He can't remember the pictures or anything else from room 1408； and he is glad。 That is a mercy。 His blood…pressure isn't so good these days （his doctor told him that burn victims often develop problems with their blood…pressure and put him on medication）； his eyes trouble him （his ophthalmologist told him to start taking Ocuvites）； he has consistent back problems； his prostate has gotten too large 。 。 。 but he can deal with these things。 He knows he isn't the first person to escape 1408 without really escaping…Olin tried to tell him…but it isn't all bad。 At least he doesn't remember。 Sometimes he has nightmares； quite often； in fact （almost every goddam night； in fact）； but he rarely remembers them when he wakes up。 A sense that things are rounding off at the corners； mostly…melting the way the corners of his minicorder melted。 He lives on Long Island these days； and when the weather is good he takes long walks on the beach。 The closest he has ever e to articulating what he does remember about his seventy…odd （very odd） minutes in 1408 was on one of those walks。 'It was never human；' he told the ining waves in a choked； halting voice。 'Ghosts 。 。 。 at least ghosts were once human。 The thing in the wall； though 。 。 。 that thing 。 。 。'
Time may improve it； he can and does hope for that。 Time may fade it； as it will fade the scars on his neck。 In the meantime； though； he sleeps with the lights on in his bedroom； so he will know at once where he is when he wakes up from the bad dreams。 He has had all the phones taken out of the house； at some point just below the place where his conscious mind seems able to go； he is afraid of picking the phone up and hearing a buzzing； inhuman voice spit； 'This is nine！ Nine！ We have killed your friends！ Every friend is now dead！'
And when the sun goes down on clear evenings； he pulls every shade and blind and drape in the house。 He sits like a man in a darkroom until his watch tells him the light…even the last fading glow along the horizon…must be gone。
He can't stand the light that es at sunset。
That yellow deepening to orange； like light in the Australian desert。
RIDING THE BULLET
I think I've said almost everything that needs to be said about this story in the Introduction。 It's essentially my telling of a tale you can hear in almost any small town。 And； like an earlier story of mine （'The Woman in the Room；' in Night Shift）； it's an attempt to talk about how my own mother's approaching death made me feel。 There es a time in most lives when we must face the deaths of our loved ones as an actual reality 。 。 。 and； by proxy； the fact of our own approaching death。 This is probably the single great subject of horror fiction： our need to cope with a mystery that can be understood only with the aid of a hopeful imagination。
I've never told anyone this story； and never thought I would…not because I was afraid of being disbelieved； exactly； but because I was ashamed 。 。 。 and because it was mine。 I've always felt that telling it would cheapen both me and the story itself； make it smaller and more mundane； no more than a camp counselor's ghost story told before lights…out。 I think I was also afraid that if I told it； heard it with my own ears； I might start to disbelieve it myself。 But since my mother died I haven't been able to sleep very well。 I doze off and then snap back again； wide…awake and shivering。 Leaving the bedside lamp on helps； but not as much as you might think。 There are so many more shadows at night； have you ever noticed that？ Even with a light on there are so many shadows。 The long ones could be the shadows of anything； you think。
Anything at all。
I was a junior at the University of Maine when Mrs。 McCurdy called about Ma。 My father died when I was too young to remember him and I was an only child； so it was just Alan and Jean Parker against the world。 Mrs。 McCurdy； who lived just up the road； called at the apartment I shared with three other guys。 She had gotten the number off the magnetic minder…board Ma kept on her fridge。
''Twas a stroke；' she said in that long and drawling Yankee accent of hers。 'Happened at the restaurant。 But don't you go flyin off all half…cocked。 Doctor says it wa'ant too bad。 She's awake and she's talkin。'
'Yeah； but is she making sense？' I asked。 I was trying to sound calm； even amused； but my heart was beating fast and the living room suddenly felt too warm。 I had the apartment all to myself； it was Wednesday； and both my roomies had classes all day。
'Oh； ayuh。 First thing she said was for me to call you but not to scare you。 That's pretty sensible； wouldn't you say？'
'Yeah。' But of course I was scared。 When someone calls and tells you your mother's been taken from work to the hospital in an ambulance； how else are you supposed to feel？
'She said for you to stay right there and mind your schoolin until the weekend。 She said you could e then； if you didn't have too much studyin t'do。'
Sure； I thought。 Fat chance。 I'd just stay here in this ratty； beer…smelling apartment while my mother lay in a hospital bed a hundred miles south； maybe dying。
'She's still a young woman； your Ma；' Mrs。 McCurdy said。 'It's just that she's let herself get awful heavy these last few years； and she's got the hypertension。 Plus the cigarettes。 She's going to have to give up the smokes。'
I doubted if she would； though； stroke or no stroke； and about that I was right…my mother loved her smokes。 I thanked Mrs。 McCurdy for calling。
'First thing I did when I got home；' she said。 'So when are you ing； Alan？ Sad'dy？' There was a sly note in her voice that suggested she knew better。
I looked out the window into a perfect afternoon in October： bright blue New England sky over trees that were shaking down their yellow leaves onto Mill Street。 Then I glanced at my watch。 Twenty past three。 I'd just been on my way out to my four o'clock philosophy seminar when the phone rang。
'You kidding？' I asked。 'I'll be there tonight。'
Her laughter was dry and a little cracked around the edges…Mrs。 McCurdy was a great one to talk about giving up the cigarettes； her and her Winstons。 'Good boy！ You'll go straight to the hospital； won't you； then drive out to the house？'
'I guess so； yeah；' I said。 I saw no sense in telling Mrs。 McCurdy that there was something wrong with the transmission of my old car； and it wasn't going anywhere but the driveway for the foreseeable future。 I'd hitchhike down to Lewiston； then out to our little house in Harlow if it wasn't too late。 If it was； I'd snooze in one of the hospital lounges。 It wouldn't be the first time I'd ridden my thumb home from school。 Or slept sitting up with my head leaning against a Coke machine； for that matter。
'I'll make sure the key's under the red wheelbarrow；' she said。 'You know where I mean； don't you？'
'Sure。' My mother kept an old red wheelbarrow by the door to the back shed； in the summer it foamed with flowers。 Thinking of it for some reason brought Mrs。 McCurdy's news home to me as a true fact： my mother was in the hospital； the little house in Harlow where I'd grown up was going to be dark tonight…there was no one there to turn on the lights after the sun went down。 Mrs。 McCurdy could say she was young； but when you're just twenty…one yourself； forty…eight seems ancient。
'Be careful； Alan。 Don't speed。'
My speed； of course； would be up to whoever I hooked a ride with； and I personally hoped that whoever it was would go like hell。 As far as I was concerned； I couldn't get to Central Maine Medical Center fast enough。 Still； there was no sense worrying Mrs。 McCurdy。
'I won't。 Thanks。'
'Wele；' she said。 'Your Ma's going to be just fine。 And won't she be some happy to see you。'
I hung up； then scribbled a note saying what had happened and where I was going。 I asked Hector Passmore； the more responsible of my roommates； to call my advisor and ask him to tell my instructors what was up so I wouldn't get whacked for cutting…two or three of my teachers were real bears about that。 Then I stuffed a change of clothes into my backpack； added my dog…eared copy of Introduction to Philosophy； and headed out。 I droppe