ght of when I thought of Richard and Jean…Claude was to go back on birth control tells you something about the effect they had on me。
You needed to be on the pill for at least a month to be safe； or as safe as you ever got。 Four more weeks； five to be sure； then I'd call。 Maybe。
I heard Ronnie's heels running on the gravel。 〃Anita； Anita； wait； don't be angry。〃
The thing was； I wasn't angry with her。 I was angry with me。 Angry that after all these months I still couldn't decide between the two men。 I stopped walking and waited for her； huddled in my little black skirt outfit； the little foil swan in my hands。 The night had turned cool enough to make me wish I'd worn a jacket。 When Ronnie caught up with me I started walking again。
〃I'm not mad； Ronnie； just tired。 Tired of you； my family； Dolph； Zerbrowski； everyone being so damned judgmental。〃 My heels hit the sidewalk with sharp clacks。 Jean…Claude had once said he could tell if I was angry just by the sound of my heels on the floor。 〃Watch your step。 You're wearing higher heels than I am。〃 Ronnie was five feet eight； which meant with heels she was nearly six feet。
I was wearing two…inch heels； which put me at five five。 I get a much better workout when Ronnie and I jog together than she does。
The phone was ringing as I juggled the key and the foil…wrapped leftovers。 Ronnie took the leftovers； and I shoved the door open with my shoulder。 I was running across the floor in my high heels before I remembered that I was on vacation。 Which meant whatever emergency was calling at 2：05 in the morning was not my problem； not for another two weeks at least。 But old habits die hard； and I was at the phone before I remembered。 I actually let the machine pick up while I stood there； heart pounding。 I was planning on ignoring it； but 。。。 but I still stood ready to grab the receiver just in case。
Loud； booming music； and a man's voice。 I didn't recognize the music； but I recognized the voice。 〃Anita； it's Gregory。 Nathaniel's in trouble。〃
Gregory was one of the wereleopards I'd inherited when I killed their alpha； their leader。 As a human； I wasn't really up to the job； but until I found a replacement； even I was better than nothing。 Wereanimals without a dominant to protect them were anyone's meat； and if someone moved in and slaughtered them； it would sort of be my fault。 So I acted as their protector； but the job was more plicated than I'd ever dreamed。 Nathaniel was the problem。 All the others were rebuilding their lives since their old leader had been killed； but not Nathaniel。 He'd had a hard life： abused； raped； pimped out； and topped。 Topped meant he'd been someone's slave as in sex and pain。 He was one of the few true submissives I'd ever met； though； admittedly； my pool of acquaintance was limited。
I cursed softly and picked up the phone。 〃I'm here； Gregory； what's happened now？〃 Even to me； my voice sounded tired and half…angry。
〃If I had anyone else to call； Anita； I'd call them； but you're it。〃 He sounded tired and angry； too。 Great。
〃Where's Elizabeth？ She was supposed to be riding herd on Nathaniel tonight。〃 I'd finally agreed that Nathaniel could start going out to the dominance and submission clubs if he was acpanied by Elizabeth and at least one other wereleopard。 Tonight it had been Gregory riding shotgun； but without Elizabeth； Gregory wasn't dominant enough to keep Nathaniel safe。 A normal submissive would have been safe in one of the clubs with someone there to simply say； 〃no thanks； we'll pass。〃 But Nathaniel was one of those rare subs who are almost incapable of saying no； and there had been hints made that his idea of pain and sex could be very extreme。 Which meant that he might say yes to things that were very； very bad for him。 Wereanimals can take a lot of injury and not be permanently damaged； but there is a limit。 A healthy bottom will say stop when he's had too much or he feels something bad happening； but Nathaniel wasn't that healthy。 So he had keepers with him to make sure no one really bad got ahold of him。 But it was more than that。 A good dominant trusts his sub to say when before the damage is too great。 The dom trusts the sub to know his own body and have enough self…preservation to call out before he is in past what his body can take。 Nathaniel did not e with that safety feature； which meant a dominant with the best of intentions could end up hurting him badly before realizing Nathaniel wouldn't help himself。
I actually had acpanied Nathaniel a few times。 As his Nimir…ra it was sort of my job to interview prospective 。。。 keepers。 I'd gone prepared for the clubs to be one of the lower circles of hell and had been pleasantly shocked。 I'd had more trouble with sexual propositions in a normal bar on a Saturday night。 In the clubs everyone was very careful not to impose on you or to be seen as pushy。 It was a small munity； and if you got a reputation for being obnoxious； you could find yourself blacklisted； with no one to play with。 I'd found the people in the scene were polite； and once you made it clear you were not there to play； no one bothered you； except tourists。 Tourists were posers； people not really into the scene； who liked to dress up and frequent the clubs。 They didn't know the rules； and hadn't bothered to ask。 They probably thought a woman who would e to a place like this would do anything。 I'd persuaded them differently。 But I'd had to stop going with Nathaniel。 The other wereleopards said I gave off so much dominant vibe that no dominant would ever approach Nathaniel while I was with him。 Though we'd had offers for ménages à trois of every description。 I felt like I needed a button that said； 〃No； I don't want to have a bondage three…way with you； thanks for asking； though。〃
Elizabeth had supposedly been dominant； but not too much to take Nathaniel out and try to pick him up a 。。。 date。
〃Elizabeth left；〃 Gregory said。
〃Without Nathaniel？〃 I made it a question。
〃Yes。〃
〃Well； that just fries my bacon；〃 I said。
〃What？〃 he asked。
〃I'm angry with Elizabeth。〃
〃It gets better；〃 he said。
〃How much better can it be； Gregory？ You all assured me that these clubs were safe。 A little bondage； a little light slap and tickle。 You all convinced me that I couldn't keep Nathaniel away from it indefinitely。 You said that they had ways to monitor the area so no one could possibly get hurt。 That's what you and Zane and Cherry told me。 Hell； I've seen it myself。 There are safety monitors everywhere； it's safer than some dates I've had； so what could have possibly gone wrong？〃
〃We couldn't have anticipated this；〃 he said。
〃Just get to the end of the story； Gregory； the foreplay is getting tedious。〃
There was silence for longer than there should have been； just the overly loud music。 〃Gregory； are you still there？〃
〃Gregory is indisposed；〃 a man's voice said。
〃Who is this？〃
〃I am Marco； if that helps you； though I doubt that it does。〃 His voice was cultured American； but upper crusty。
〃New in town are you？〃 I asked。
〃Something like that；〃 he said。
〃Wele to town。 Make sure you go up in the Arch while you're here； it's a nice view。 But what has your recent arrival in St。 Louis got to do with me and mine？〃
〃We didn't realize it was your pet we had at first。 He wasn't the one we were hunting for； but now that we have him； we're keeping him。〃
〃You can't 'keep' him；〃 I said。
〃e down and take him away from us； if you can。〃 That strangely smooth voice made the threat all the more effective。 There was no anger； nothing personal。 It sounded like business； and I had no clue what it was about。
〃Put Gregory back on；〃 I said。
〃I don't think so。 He's enjoying some personal time with my friends right now。〃
〃How do I know he's still alive？〃 My voice was as unemotional as his。 I wasn't feeling anything yet； it was too sudden； too unexpected； like ing in on the middle of a movie。
〃No one's dead； yet；〃 the man said。
〃How do I know that？〃
He was quiet for a second； then； 〃What sort of people are you used to dealing with； that you would ask if we've killed him first thing？〃
〃It's been a rough year。 Now put Gregory on the phone； because until I know he's alive； and he tells me the others are； this negotiation is stalled。〃
〃How do you know we are negotiating？〃 Marco asked。
〃Call it a hunch。〃
〃My； you are direct。〃
〃You have no idea how direct I can be； Marco。 Put Gregory on the phone。〃
There was the music…filled silence； and more music； but no voices。 〃Gregory； Gregory； are you there？ Is anyone there？〃 Shit； I thought。
〃I'm afraid that your kitty…cat won't squawl for us。 A point of pride； I think。〃
〃Put the receiver to his ear and let me talk to him。〃
〃As you wish。〃
More of the loud music。 I spoke as if I was sure that Gregory was listening。 〃Gregory； I need to know you're alive。 I need to know that Nathaniel and everyone else is alive。 Talk to me； Gregory。〃
His voice came squeezed tight； as if he were gritting his teeth。 〃Yesss。〃
〃Yes； what； they're all alive？〃
〃Yess。〃
〃What are they doing to you？〃
He screamed into the phone； and the sound raised the hairs on my neck and danced down my arms in goosebumps。 The sound stopped abruptly。 〃