e all the way back。 〃I'll go help Cherry then。〃 He paused at the doorway。 〃I'm really glad you didn't die。〃
〃Me too。〃
He grinned and left。
That left me alone with Micah。 I looked into his yellow…green eyes and knew that they were also a sign that he'd spent too much time in animal form。 We hadn't kissed； so I didn't know if he had dainty fangs like Zane。 I hoped not； and wasn't sure why I cared。
〃Do you mind if I start cleaning up？〃 he asked。
I shook my head。 〃Help yourself。 I'm going to go look for my clothes。〃 But Nathaniel came around the door with my cell phone。
I looked at the slim black phone。 I'd only had it a few months。 I'd tried not to buy one。 If you had a cell phone and a beeper you were never truly free of the office。 Of course； I was on vacation。 Though； so far； it hadn't been all that relaxing。
I popped the phone open and dialed Richard's number from memory。 There was no answer； just his machine。 I left a message； then knew what I was going to do。 I had to know what was happening with Gregory。 I thought about Richard； the feel of his arms； the scent of his neck； the brush of his hair； and that prickling rush of energy rolled over my skin。 I reached down the mark that bound me to Richard and found him standing on a podium。 He was arguing with someone； but I couldn't see who。 I never got as clear a visual through Richard as I did through Jean…Claude。 Richard turned as if he could see me standing behind him； then he thrust me out； throwing up a shield so solid I couldn't feel him on the other side。
Nathaniel was holding my arm； steadying me。 〃Are you alright？〃
I nodded。 Being thrust out like that was always disorienting。 Richard knew that。 Fuck。 〃I'm okay。〃 I pulled away from Nathaniel and had to call information for the number for The Lunatic Cafe。 Richard was in the meeting room in the back of the restaurant。 Raina had owned the restaurant； and according to pack law； it could have belonged to me； if I hadn't used a gun to kill her。 It had to be mano…a…mano； hand…to…hand； or claws； or at least a knife before all that was hers would be mine。 Possessions anyway。 You can't get anyone's power by killing them。 It just doesn't work that way。 And anyway； who would want it to？ Guns were considered cheating； so I didn't inherit all of Raina's stuff。
Richard picked up on the second ring； as if he'd been expecting the call。 〃Richard； it's Anita。〃
〃I know。〃 His voice was angry； closed； and tight。
〃We need to talk。〃
〃I'm in the middle of something here； Anita。〃
Fine； if he wanted to play it brusque and hostile； I'd play。 〃Where's Gregory？〃
〃I can't tell you that。〃
〃Why？〃
〃Because； you might try and rescue him； and you're not lupa anymore。 The pack would defend itself； and I don't want you shooting holes in my wolves。〃
〃You leave my leopards alone； and I'll leave your wolves alone。〃
〃Anita； it's not that simple。〃
〃I got the explanation； Richard。 You freaked when you found out Gregory may have infected me with leopard juice。 You had your enforcers grab him； and you've charged him with killing your lupa。 Which is just stupid； I'm not dead。〃
〃Do you know what the pack is voting on right now； right this minute？〃
〃Not a clue。〃
〃Whether I will be picking another lupa from the pack before the next full moon。〃
〃I guess you'll need one；〃 I said； and even hearing myself acknowledge it made my stomach clench。
〃A lover； Anita； they're wanting to force me to pick a lover from the pack。〃
〃You mean we can't date now？〃
〃That's the vote。〃
〃Stephen； one of your wolves； and Vivian； one of my leopards； are living together。 No one seems to care about that。〃
〃Stephen is one of the least of us。 They wouldn't tolerate cross…species dating for a dominant。 And they certainly won't tolerate it for their Ulfric。〃
〃Human is good enough to fuck； but not leopard；〃 I said。
〃We are human； Anita。 But we aren't cats； we're wolves。〃
〃So you won't be dating me； or anything； now？〃
〃Not if I want to stay Ulfric。〃
〃What happens to the triumvirate？〃
〃I don't know。〃
〃You're going to give me up just like that。〃 I was suddenly cold； my stomach like a hard frozen knot。
〃You've been out of my life for over half a year。 How do I know that something else won't scare you off again？〃
〃I planned on dating you both； Richard； on being with you both。〃 I realized as soon as I said it that I meant it。 I'd made a decision and hadn't realized it。
〃What about a week from now； or a month； or even a year？ What will scare you off next time？〃
〃I don't plan on running anymore； Richard。〃
〃Nice to know。〃 I could feel his anger like something hot and touchable over the phone。 Either his shield was leaking； or he'd lowered it。
〃You don't want to be with me anymore？〃 My voice was soft； hurt； and I hated it。 Hated it。
〃I want to be with you； you know that。 You drive me crazy； but I still want you。〃
〃But you'll still give me up；〃 I said。 My voice was a little stronger； but not much。 Richard was dumping me。 Fine； it was his prerogative。 I was a pain in the ass； I knew that。 But my chest ached with it； damn it。
〃I don't want to； Anita； but I'll do what I have to do。 You taught me that。〃
My eyes were hot。 I'd taught him that。 Great。 If we were really going to break up for good； then I would not cry or beg。 I would not be weak。 My voice came out more solid； more sure of itself。 My stomach was still in cold knots； but it didn't show in my voice。 The effort that it took to just sound normal over the phone made my chest tight。 〃You're Ulfric； wolf king。 Your word is law in the pack。〃
〃I've worked hard to make sure that everyone has an equal voice； Anita。 I can't pull rank now。 It would undo everything I've tried to change。〃
〃Ideals are great in theory； Richard； but they don't work too well in real life。〃
〃I disagree；〃 he said。 His anger was already leaking away。 He just sounded tired。
〃I'm not going to argue things we've been arguing since we met。 I'm going to concentrate on the things I can change。 And no matter how much we want to； we can't change each other； Richard。 We are what we are。〃 My voice was uncertain again； full of some of the emotion I was feeling。 〃So； is Gregory okay？〃
〃He's okay。〃
〃I want him back； you know that。〃
〃I know that。〃 His anger was making a eback。
〃Now that I'm not lupa； not pack； how do I get him back？〃
〃You have to e to the lupanar tomorrow night and petition for him。〃
〃What do you mean； 'petition for him？' 〃
〃You have to prove yourself worthy。 There'll be some kind of test。〃
〃Like multiple choice； essay； what？〃
〃I don't know yet。 We're 。。。 voting on it。〃
〃Fuck； Richard； there's a reason why we have a representative democracy in this country； not a pure one。 Pure one person； one vote； just doesn't work well。 You can't decide anything that way。〃
〃They're deciding； Anita。 You're just not liking the way it's going。〃
〃How could you take Gregory？ How could you do that？〃
〃As soon as I realized what had happened； I knew that the pack would vote you out。 Most of them weren't happy with you even before。 You weren't pack； and they didn't like that。 The fact that you've avoided them all of them for six months didn't help。〃
〃I had to get my shit together before I could e back； Richard。〃
〃And while you were getting your shit together； mine was falling apart。〃
〃I'm sorry； Richard； I am。 But I didn't know。〃
〃Tomorrow night at the lupanar； about an hour after dark。 You can bring all your wereleopards and any other shapeshifters that are your allies。 If it were me； as Ulfric； I'd bring the wererats。〃
〃I'm not lupa anymore； so they aren't my allies； are they？〃
〃No；〃 he said； and the anger was gone again。 Richard never could hold a grudge for long。
〃What happens if I don't win Gregory back？〃
He didn't answer me； just the sound of his breathing on the phone。 〃Richard； what happens to Gregory？〃
〃He'll be judged by the pack。〃
〃And？〃
〃If he's convicted of killing our lupa； it's a death sentence。〃
〃But I'm right here； Richard。 I'm not dead。 You can't kill Gregory for killing me； when he didn't do it。〃
〃I delayed the judgment until you were well enough to attend。 It was the best I could do。〃
〃You know； Richard； sometimes it's good to be king。 A king gets to pardon whomever he wants； a king gets to fuck whomever he wants。〃
〃I know that。〃
〃Then be king； Richard； really be king。 Be their Ulfric； not their president。〃
〃I'm doing what I think best for them all。〃
〃Richard； you can't do this。〃
〃It's already done。〃
〃Richard； if I fail your little test； I will not let you execute Gregory。 Do you understand me？〃
〃You won't be allowed to bring guns into the lupanar； just knives。〃 His voice had gone very careful。
〃I remember the rule。 But Richard； are you listening to me？ Are you understanding me？〃
〃If we try to execute Gregory tomorrow night； you'll fight us； I understand。 But understand this； Anita； your leopards are no match for us； not even with Micah and his pard。 We outnumber you five to one； maybe more。〃
〃It doesn't matter； Richard。 I can't stand by and watch Gregory die； not for something stupid like this。〃
〃Will you try to save one of your cats and risk