ou today； if you had been in the mood for truth。 But you are right； this we must have clear between us。 I would simply have urged you to keep Nathaniel close at hand and let the cards fall as they may； but if you insist on a list； then I will give it to you； but not without reasons。 Because I want it clear that I do not share you lightly； and there are men I will not share you with at all。〃
He was angry now； and his eyes had bled to sapphire flame。 The rest of his body was very still； but the eyes gave it all away。 He was in the grip of some strong emotion； probably anger； but I wasn't sure。 And he was shielding like a son of a bitch； so something he was feeling； or thinking； he didn't want me to share。
〃Asher is acceptable。〃
He didn't give the reasons for that one； and I didn't ask； because there were too many of them； most of them painful。
〃If Richard es to his senses； then of course。〃 He smoothed his hands down the front of his robe； he often checked his clothes when he was nervous。 〃The Nimir…Raj will have to be acceptable； because he calls to you。 Richard's beast calls to you through my marks； my ties to him； to it； but the Nimir…Raj； he calls to you； Anita。〃 My real name again。 He was not happy。 〃He calls to something in you； in your power。 It may be that you are truly Nimir…Ra； and the full moon will see it true。 Or it may be that； as with Nathaniel； you have found your animal to call。 If you are drawn more strongly to all the leopards； then it could be for either reason。 Be wary if the leopards are yours to call。 It may not merely be Nathaniel and the Nimir…Raj that beckon。〃
〃Please； don't tell me that I'm going to turn into slut…girl。〃
He smiled。 〃I do not think you need to fear that。 You are stronger willed than that。〃
〃You just said I might be tempted by the other wereleopards。〃
〃If the Nimir…Raj or Nathaniel are not near you when the ardeur rises； then my advice is to give in to it instantly。〃
I gave him wide eyes。
〃If you fight it； ma petite； it grows。 If it grows large enough； then you may indeed turn into slut…girl。 If you give in and feed immediately； then you will have sex with one person； not several； and it will be more a person of your choosing。〃
〃So the real advice is； keep the men I prefer within easy reach。〃
〃I would make Nathaniel； or someone of your choosing； your constant panion。〃
I swallowed hard and searched his face； but it was pleasantly blank his expression when he didn't want me to know what he was thinking。 His eyes had bled back to normal。
Something occurred to me。 〃I haven't seen Damian around。〃
〃I speak of sex； and you think of Damian。〃 His voice was still pleasant but the words held something harsh。
〃You give me this list of people to sleep with； and not to sleep with； but you leave him off either list。 And he wasn't at the club； and he didn't e to the bedroom； attracted by the power like Asher。 Where is he？〃
Jean…Claude rubbed his hands over his face。 〃I was going to tell you； then you decided you wanted no more hard truths today。〃 He lowered his hands and looked at me。
〃He's alive； I'd know it if he wasn't。〃
〃Yes； I believe you would。 There was a time when my first master made my heart beat。 Her power suffused me； made me live。 But her power came from her Master of the City； so it was in reality his power that filled me。 Each master vampire that I belonged to demanded blood oaths； and each one in turn made my blood course； my heart move。 Then Belle； herself； the head of my line； brought me in； and she filled me。 She was like the pounding of the ocean； and all others before her were but rivers seeking to drown in her embrace。 Gradually； I filled with my own power。 But even now it is her lineage that makes me live。 The power that made her is what keeps me alive。 Damian is descended from her line； not from Belle herself； but from one of her children； as I am。 I am Master of the City and the power that animates me； animates Damian。 When he took the oaths that bound him to me； that made him loyal to me； it became my power that filled him； my power that made his heart beat。 And I broke the tie with She who made him。〃
〃You make all the vampires under you alive？〃 I made it a question。
〃The power es through me； yes； but only if they are of my line； my lineage。 If they are descended from other than Belle's children； then no； the blood oaths do not bind as tightly。〃
〃What about Asher？ You don't make his heart beat。〃
He nodded。 〃Very good； ma petite。 No； I do not。 A Master Vampire is a vampire that has bee enough of a power that they fill themselves up。 It is one of the things that being a master means； and one of the reasons that many of the older vampire masters still kill their children when they feel that tie break。〃
〃You're volunteering an awful lot of information； and don't think I'm not grateful； it's fascinating； but what does this all have to do with Damian？〃
〃You have raised Damian from his coffin once； filling him with your necromancy like a zombie。 You have saved his life twice with your necromancy。 You have forged a tie between him and you。〃
Actually； I knew that； but out loud I said； 〃He said that he couldn't tell me no if I gave him a direct order。 That he wanted to serve me。 It scared him。〃
〃It should have。〃
〃I didn't mean to do it； Jean…Claude。 I didn't even know it was possible。〃
〃Legends speak of necromancers that could control all types of undead； not merely zombies。 It was at one time Council policy to slay all necromancers on sight。〃
〃Gee； glad the policy changed。〃
〃Yes；〃 he said。 〃But you severed my tie with Damian。 I did not realize it at first； but when he returned from Tennessee； it was not my power that made his heart beat； it was yours。〃
I remembered feeling that in Tennessee； feeling the tie between us。 〃It wasn't done deliberately；〃 I said。
〃I know that； but you left me with a problem when you went away for over half a year。 Damian is over a thousand years old。 Though not a Master Vampire； he is still powerful。 He no longer had ties to any vampire hierarchy。 It freed him of all blood oaths； of all mystically bound loyalties。 He was yours； but you did not e to claim him。〃
〃You should have told me。〃
〃And what would you have done？ Taken him home to live in your basement？ You did not have the power or control six months ago to deal with him。〃
〃Now I do。 Is that what you're saying？〃
〃You cast out Belle Morte。 One of the most powerful of the Council。 If you can do that； ma petite； then you can handle Damian。〃
〃This is all great； but where is Damian？〃
〃I could no longer count on his loyalty。 I no longer controlled him； do you understand； ma petite？ I had a vampire that was more than twice my age； and could not control him。 It both made me look weak in others' eyes when I could not afford to appear weak； and it was dangerous； because he knew when you healed over your aura and shielded so tight。 It wasn't only Richard and me who felt the loss of you。 You cut Damian off； and he went a little 。。。 mad。〃
I was scared now； my heart beginning to climb up my throat。 〃Where is Damian？〃
〃First； ma petite； understand that you cannot take him with you tonight because to tend him will be a full…time job for the first few hours。〃
〃Just tell me；〃 I said。
〃I had to lock him away； ma petite。''
I stared at him。 〃Lock him away； how？〃
He just looked at me； and it was eloquent。
〃He's been locked in a cross…wrapped coffin for six months？〃
〃About that； yes。〃
〃You bastard。〃
〃I could have killed him； ma petite； that's what others would have done。〃
〃Why didn't you？〃
〃Because it was partially my fault for exposing him to you。 Damian was mine to protect； and I failed him。〃
〃He's mine； mine to protect；〃 I said。
〃Yet； you deserted him。〃
〃I didn't know。 You should have told me。〃
〃And six months ago would you have believed me？ Or would you have thought it was some ploy to get you back into my life？〃
I started to tell him； of course I'd have believed him； but I stopped and thought about it。 〃I don't know if I'd have believed you or not。〃
〃I hoped that I would find a way to reestablish my dominance over him； but he is closed to me。〃
I swallowed hard and looked at him。 〃If he's mine； then why didn't I feel him when my shielding broke all to hell in New Mexico？〃
〃I have been blocking you from sensing him； and it has not been easy。〃
I closed my eyes and counted to ten； but it didn't help。 I was so angry my skin felt hot。 〃You had no right to do that。〃
〃Without the marks being married； I think Damian would have seduced you。 Because you would have been drawn to him as you are drawn to Nathaniel now； or perhaps even the Nimir…Raj。〃
〃I would not have fucked Damian without the ardeur helping me； and I didn't have that six months ago。〃
〃You may have your vampire back tomorrow night。 I will help you nurse him back to health。〃
〃I'm ing back tonight to get him。〃
〃Talk to Asher； ma petite。 Ask him what it will take to nurse a vampire back from six months in the coffin。 Damian is not a master； he has had no ability to feed or gain energy。 He will e out of the coffin a starved； crazed thing。 There will be very little left of him； at first。〃 He wa