〃That's enough； Richard。〃
Nathaniel answered； 〃No。〃
〃You're so scared of me I can't tell if you're lying or not。〃 He grabbed a handful of Nathaniel's hair and pulled him backwards； peeling him away from me。 I had one of the wrist sheath knives in my hand and didn't remember drawing it。 The point was pressed against the long line of Richard's throat； and even I was breathless at the speed of it。 It must have been a blur of movement。 It wasn't human speed。
Everything froze。
Shang…Da and Jamil moved into the room。 I pressed the point deeper against Richard's neck。 〃Don't interfere； boys。〃
They stopped moving。 I met Richard's gaze and found his eyes had gone wolf amber。 〃Let go of him； Richard。〃 My voice was low； but it seemed to fill the room。
〃You wouldn't kill me for this。〃 His voice was low； careful； too。
〃Kill； no； but bleed？ Oh； yes。〃
〃You need me to help you save Gregory。〃
I could feel his pulse beating against the tip of my knife。 〃I won't let you hurt Nathaniel to save Gregory。〃
His grip actually tightened on Nathaniel's hair； and I pressed the point in enough to draw the first crimson drop。 〃Would you be this upset if it wasn't Nathaniel？〃 he said。
〃This is the only warning I will ever give you； Richard。 Never touch one of my people again。〃
〃Or what？ You'll kill me？ I don't think you'll do it。〃
I realized in that moment that if I wasn't willing to kill him； I had no threat。 And I really wasn't willing to kill him； not over this； not yet。
I drew the blade back from his neck and watched him relax； the tension easing away from him； his hand still in Nathaniel's hair。 I moved without thinking； and I was fast enough that the knife cut across his forearm before he could react。 He jerked away； came to his feet； and took a step back； holding his bleeding arm。 The cut was deeper than I'd meant for it to be； because I'd rushed it。 Blood dripped from between his fingers。 Jamil and Shang…Da moved into the room。
I stood and drew Nathaniel with me； as he pulled up his shorts to cover himself。 I put the French doors at our backs。 〃You are never to lay a hand in anger on my leopards； Richard； you or any of your wolves。〃
Jamil was helping Richard press a towel to the wound。 Shang…Da had gone for Dr。 Lillian。 〃It would serve you right if I just walked out and left you and your leopards to fend for yourselves。〃
〃You'd leave Gregory to be permanently deaf； or dead； because we had a fight？ He's in danger because you couldn't control your temper； or your wolves。〃
〃It's my fault； right； all my fault。〃
I just looked at him； Nathaniel behind me； the bloody knife still in my hand。
Richard gave a laugh that sounded more out of pain than humor。 〃I've let everyone down tonight。〃 He looked at me； and there was something fierce in his face that wasn't his beast but just sheer emotion。 Anger； pain； so deep it was like anguish。 〃I'll help you save Gregory； because you're right； it is my fault。 I'll take this；〃 he raised the wounded arm； while Jamil still held it； 〃because you're right again； I had no right to touch one of your people。 I wouldn't have let you abuse one of my wolves either。〃
Dr。 Lillian came in； took one look and started scolding us for being children who couldn't play well together。 〃He's going to need stitches。 Shame on you both。〃
Richard stared over her head as she cleaned the wound。 I think he wasn't really glaring at me； he was glaring at Nathaniel。 He was genuinely jealous。 Jealous in a way that he shouldn't have been。 What had Jean…Claude told him about the ardeur and about Nathaniel； and about what we'd all done together at the Circus？ Jean…Claude wouldn't actually lie； but he might make things sound worse if it suited his purposes。 But what purpose did it serve to make Richard jealous of Nathaniel？ I would have to ask Jean…Claude about that。 I had time to call while Richard got stitched up。
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JEAN…CLAUDE ADMITTED ONLY to telling the absolute truth。 But； he added； if because of that Monsieur Zeeman was jealous of Nathaniel； this wasn't an altogether bad thing。 〃He will share you with me； because he must； and he will share you with Micah also； because he must； but we are both alphas； dominants。 To share you with someone like Nathaniel that is different。〃
〃You changed something about the story to make Nathaniel sound like more of a threat； didn't you？〃
〃No； ma petite； I merely told the truth without leaving anything out。 He is not entirely happy with Jason either。〃
〃Jean…Claude； you can't do this to Richard。 You'll drive him mad。〃
〃Mad enough； perhaps； to finally acknowledge that he cannot live without you； and that he must e to terms with our triumvirate。〃
〃You Machiavellian shithead； you're playing with him。〃
〃I am trying to maneuver him into doing what must be done if we are to survive。 If that be Machiavellian； so be it。〃
〃You are making things worse；〃 I said。
〃I don't believe so。 I think； ma petite； that you still do not understand men。 Many men will give up a woman if they are unhappy with her。 But let another man try to claim her； and often； they find they still do want her。〃
〃You and Micah aren't petition enough？〃 I asked。
〃As I explained； we are his equals。 Nathaniel is lesser； and that will prick his pride more。〃
〃I didn't think Richard had that kind of destructive guy pride。〃
〃I think there are many things you do not know about our Richard。〃
〃And you do？〃
〃I am； after all； a man； ma petite。 I believe I understand the male psyche a tiny bit better than you do。〃
I couldn't argue with that。 〃Well； give me a heads…up next time you plan to do any maneuvering。 You could have gotten one of us killed。〃
He sighed。 〃I do keep underestimating the stubbornness of both of you。 My apologies for that。〃
I leaned my forehead against the kitchen wall。 〃Jean…Claude 。。。 〃
〃Yes； ma petite？〃
I closed my eyes。 〃Tell me exactly what you think Richard thinks about Nathaniel and me。〃
〃I told him the absolute truth； ma petite； nothing more； and nothing less。〃
I turned around； put my back to the wall； looked out at the empty kitchen。 Richard was in the downstairs bathroom getting stitched up。 Nathaniel was with the other leopards。 I'd given strict orders that he was not to be left alone。 I just wasn't up to Richard and him actually having a fight。 It would be too 。。。 ridiculous； or pathetic。
〃And what does that mean； that you told the truth； no more； no less？〃
〃You will not like it。〃
〃I don't like it now； just tell me； Jean…Claude。〃
〃I told him what had happened with the ardeur； and added my own belief the reason you so often find Nathaniel around when sex is in the air is that you find him sexually attractive。〃
〃That did not make Richard e over here and start a fight。〃
〃I do remember adding that you might find a less…demanding male refreshing after the two of us。 Someone who did not make so many demands on you； someone who merely accepted you as you are。〃
〃You do that；〃 I said。
〃So good of you to notice；〃 he said。 〃But it is not I that has been living in your home for months； and from what I smell on Nathaniel when he es into work； sharing your bed。〃
〃Any of the wereleopards are wele in the bedroom when they stay here。 It's like a big pile of puppies it's not sexual。〃
〃If you say so。〃 His voice was soft； mocking。
〃Damn you； Jean…Claude； you know I don't see Nathaniel that way。〃
He sighed； and it was heavy。 〃I think it is not me that you lie to； ma petite but yourself。〃
〃I am not in love with Nathaniel。〃
〃Did I ever say you were？〃
〃Then what are you talking about？〃
He made a small exasperated sound。 〃Ma petite； you still believe that you must love every man that you e to physically。 It is not so。 You can have very pleasant； even wondrous sex with a friend。 It does not have to be love。〃
I was shaking my head； realized he couldn't see it； and said； 〃I don't do casual sex； Jean…Claude； you know that。〃
〃Whatever you are doing with Nathaniel； ma petite； it is not casual。〃
〃I can't use him as my pomme de sang。 I can't。〃
〃Your morals have reared their ugly heads； ma petite； do not let them make you foolish。〃
I opened my mouth to protest everything he'd said； but closed it and just thought about what he'd said for a few seconds。 Did I find Nathaniel attractive？ Well； yeah。 But I found a lot of men attractive。 That didn't mean I had to be intimate with them。
〃Ma petite； I can hear you breathing。 What are you thinking？〃
What he said made me think a new thought。 〃When we first married the marks I could almost read your mind； unless you concentrated to keep me out。 Now it's not like that。 Maybe the ardeur will be temporary； too。〃
〃Perhaps； we can but hope。〃
〃If I have the ardeur； I'll have to have sex。 Isn't that what you wanted？〃
〃I would be a fool to deny that your enforced chastity is burdensome； but I would never willingly inflict the ardeur on anyone。 It is a 。。。 curse； ma petite。 The blood lust that I feel can be sated。 My body can only hold so much。 But the ardeur； oh； ma petite； it is never truly satisfied。 There is always that ache； that need。 How could I wish that upon you？ Though if our Monsieur Zeeman would cooperate； it might be the answe