go through such a weekend again in his life。 They had kept their normal； pleasant faces on …for Tad … but Vic had felt like a participant at a masquerade ball。 He didn't like to be aware of the muscles in his face at work when he smiled。
They had slept in the same bed together； but for the first time the king…sized double seemed too small to Vic。 They slept each on one side； the space between them a crisply sheeted no…man's…land。 He had lain awake both Friday and Saturday nights； morbidly aware of each shift in Donna's weight as she moved； the sound of her nightdress against her body。 He found himself wondering if she was awake； too； on her side of the emptiness that lay between them。
Last night； Sunday night； they had tried to do something about that empty space in the middle of the bed。 The sex part had been moderately successful； if a little tentative （at least neither of them had cried when it was over； for some reason he had been morbidly sure that one of them would do that）。 But Vic was not sure you could call what they had done making love。
He dressed in his summerweight gray suit … as gray as the early fight outside … and picked up his two suitcases。 One of them was much heavier than the other。 That one contained most of the Sharp Cereals file。 Roger had all the graphic layouts。
Donna was making waffles in the kitchen。 The teapot was on； just beginning to huff and puff。 She was wearing his old blue flannel robe。 Her face was puffy； as if instead of resting her； sleep had punched her unconscious。
'Will the planes fly when it's like that？' she asked。
'It's going to bum off。 You can see the sun already。' He pointed at it and then kissed her lightly on the nape of the neck。 'You shouldn't have gotten up。'
'No problem。' She lifted the waffle iron's lid and deftly turned a waffle out on a plate。 She handed it to him。 'I wish you weren't going away。' Her voice was low。 'Not now。 After last night。'
'It wasn't that bad； was it？'
'Not like before；' Donna said。 A bitter； almost secret smile touched her lips and was gone。 She beat the waffle mixture with a wire whisk and then poured a ladleful into the waffle iron and dropped its heavy lid。 Sssss。 She poured boding water over a couple of Red Rose bags and took the cups … one said VIC； the other DONNA … over to the table。 'Eat your waffle。 There's strawberry preserves； if you want them。'
He got the preserves and sat down。 He spread some oleo across the top of the waffle and watched it melt into the little squares； just as he had when he was a child。 The preserves were smucker's。 He liked Smucker's preserves。 He spread the waffle liberally with them。 It looked great。 But he wasn't hungry。
'Will you get laid in Boston or New York？' she asked； turning her back on him。 'Even it out） Tit for tat）
He jumped a little …perhaps even flushed。 He was glad her back was turned because he felt that at that precise moment there was more of him on his face than he wanted her to see。 Not that he was angry； the thought of giving the bellman a ten instead of the usual buck and then asking the fellow a few questions had certainly crossed his mind。 He knew that Roger had done it on occasion。
'I'm going to be too busy for anything like that。'
'What does the ad say？ There's Always Room for Jell…O。'
'Are you trying to make me mad； Donna？ Or what？'
'No。 Go on and eat。 You got to feed the machine。'
She sat down with a waffle of her own。 No oleo for her。 A dash of Vermont Maid Syrup； that was all。 How well we know each other； he thought。
'What time are you picking Roger up）' she asked him。
'After some hot negotiations； we've settled on six。'
She smiled again； but this time the smile was warm and fond。 'He really took that early…bird business to heart at some point； didn't he？'
'Yeah。 I'm surprised he hasn't called yet to make sure I'm up。'
The phone rang。
They looked at each other across the table； and after a silent considering pause they both burst out laughing。 It was a rare moment； certainly more rare than the careful lovemaking in the dark the night before。 He saw how fine her eyes were； how lucent。 They were as gray as the morning mist outside。
'Get it quick before it wakes the Tadder up；' she said。
He did。 It was Roger。 He assured Roger that he was up； dressed； and in a fighting frame of mind。 He would pick Roger up on the dot of six。 He hung up wondering if he would end up telling Roger about Donna and Steve Kemp。 Probably not。 Not because Roger's advice would be bad； it wouldn't be。 But； even though Roger would promise not to tell Althea； he most certainly would。 And he had a suspicion that Althea would find it difficult to resist sharing out such a juicy bit of bridge…table gossip。 Such careful consideration of the question made him feel depressed all over again。 It was as if； by trying to work out the problem between them； he and Donna were burying their own body by moonlight。
'Good old Roger；' he said； sitting down again。 He tried on a smile but it felt wrong。 The moment of spontaneity was gone。
'Will you be able to get all of your stuff and all of Roger's into the jag？'
'Sure；' he said。 'We'll have to。 Althea needs their car； and you've got … oh； shit； I pletely forgot to call Joe Camber about your Pinto。'
'You had a few other things on your mind；' she said。 'Mere was faint irony in her voice。 'That's all right。 I'm not going to send Tad to the playground today。 He has the sniffles。 I may keep him home the rest of the summer； if that suits you。 I get into trouble when he's gone。'
There were tears choking her voice； squeezing it and blurring it； and he didn't know what to say or how to respond。 He watched helplessly as she found a Kleenex； blew her nose； wiped her eyes。
'Whatever；' he said； shaken。 'Whatever seems best。' He rushed on： 'Just give Camber a call。 He's always there； and I don't think it would take him twenty minutes to fix it。 Even if he has to put in another carb …'
'Will you think about it while you're gone？' she asked。
'About what we're going to do？ The two of us？'
'Yes；' he said。
'Good。 I will too。 Another waffle？'
'No； thanks。' The whole conversation was turning surreal。 Suddenly he wanted to be out and gone。 Suddenly the trip felt very necessary and very attractive。 The idea of getting away from the whole mess。 Putting miles between him and it。 He felt a sudden jab of anticipation。 In his mind he could see the Delta jet cutting through the unraveling fog and into the blue。
'Can I have a waffle？'
They both looked around； startled。 It was Tad； standing in the hallway in his yellow footy pajamas； his stuffed coyote grasped by one ear； his red blanket wrapped around his shoulders。 He looked like a small； sleepy Indian。
'I guess I could rustle one up；' Donna said； surprised。 Tad was not a notably early riser。
'Was it the phone； Tad？' Vic asked。
Tad shook his head。 'I made myself wake up early so I could say good…bye to you； Daddy。 Do you really have to go？'
'It's just for a while。'
'It's too long；' Tad said blackly。 'I put a circle around the day you're ing home on my calendar。 Mom showed me which one。 I'm going to mark off every day； and she said she'd tell me the Monster Words every night。'
'Well； that's okay； isn't it？'
'Will you can？'
'Every other night；' Vic said。
'Every night；' Tad insisted。 He crawled up into Vic's lap and set his coyote next to Vic's plate。 Tad began to crunch up a piece of toast。 'Every night； Daddy。'
'I can't every night；' Vic said； thinking of the backbreaking schedule Roger had laid out on Friday； before the letter had e。
'Why not？'
'Because …'
'Because your Uncle Roger is a hard taskmaster；' Donna said； Puffing Tad's waffle On the table。 'e on over here and eat。 Bring your coyote。 Daddy will call us tomorrow night from Boston and tell us everything that happened to him。'
Tad took his place at the end of the table。 He had a large plastic placemat that said TAD。 'Will you bring me a toy？'
'Maybe。 If you're good。 And maybe I'll call tonight so you'll know I got to Boston in one piece。'
'Good deal。' Vic watched； fascinated； as Tad poured a small ocean of syrup over his waffle。 'What kind of toy？'
'We'll see；' Vic said。 He watched Tad eat his waffle。 It suddenly occurred to him that Tad liked eggs。 Scrambled； friend； poached； or hard…boiled； Tad gobbled them up。 'Tad？'
'What； Daddy？'
'If you wanted people to buy eggs； what would you tell them？'
Tad considered。 'I'd tell em eggs taste good；' he said。
Vic met his wife's eyes again； and they had a second moment like the one that had occurred when the phone rang。 This time they laughed telepathically。
Their good…byes were light。 Only Tad； with his imperfect grasp of how short the future really was； cried。
'You'll think about it？' Donna asked him again as he climbed into the jag。
'Yes。'
But driving into Bridgton to get Roger； what he thought about were those two moments of near…perfect munication。 Two in one morning； not bad。 All it took was eight or nine years together； roughly a quarter of all the years so far spent on the face of the earth。 He got thinking about how ridiculous the whole concept of human munication was … what monstrous； absurd overkill was necessary to achieve even a little。 When you'd invested the time and made it good； you had to he careful。