ame。 Owen tried to piss on the bristles of Mr Rapeloew's toothbrush； that was what he wanted to do； but his dingus was too hard and no piss would e out； not a single drop。 So he spat on the bristles instead； then rubbed the ；pit in and put the brush back in the toothbrush holder。 In the kitchen； he poured a glass of water over the electric stove…burners。 Then he took a large china serving platter from the sideboard。 'They said it was the stork；' Owen said； holding the platter over his head。 'It must be a baby； because he said it was a stork。' And then he heaved the platter into the er； where it shattered into a thousand pieces。 Once that was done he had fled from the house。 Whatever had been inside him； the thing that had made his dingus hard and his eyeballs feel too big for their sockets； the shattering sound of the plate had broken it； popped it like a pimple； and if his parents hadn't been so worried about Mrs Rapeloew； they almost certainly would have seen something wrong with him。 As it was； they probably just assumed that he was worried about Mrs R。； too。 For the next week he had slept little； and what sleep he did get had been haunted by bad dreams。 In one of these； Mrs Rapeloew came home from the hospital with the baby the stork had brought her； only the baby was black and dead。 Owen had been all but consumed with guilt and shame （never to the point of confessing； however； what in God's name would he have said when his Baptist mother asked him what had possessed him）； and yet he never forgot the blind pleasure of standing in the bathroom with his shorts down around his knees； trying to piss on Mr Rapeloew's toothbrush； or the thrill that had gusted through him when the serving platter shattered。 If he had been older； he would have e in his pants； he supposed。 The purity was in the senselessness； the joy was in the sound of the shatter； the afterglow was the slow and pleasurable wallow in remorse for having done it and the fear of being caught。 Mr Rapeloew had said it was a stork； but when Owen's father came in that night； he told him it was a stroke。 That a blood…vessel in Mrs Rapeloew's brain had sprung a leak and that was a stroke。
And now here it was again； all of that。
Maybe this time I will e； he thought。 It'll certainly be a lot goddam grander than trying to piss on Mr Rapeloew's toothbrush。 And then； as he turned his own hat around： Same basic concept； though。
'Owen？' Kurtz's voice。 'Are you there； son？ If you don't roger me right now； I'm going to assume you either can't or won't…'
'Boss； I'm here。' Voice steady。 In his mind's eye he saw a sweaty little boy holding a china serving platter over his head。 'Boys； are you ready to kick a little interstellar ass？'
A roar of affirmation that included one goddam right and one let's tear em up。
'What do you want first； boys？'
Squad Anthem and Anthem and Fucking Stones； right now！
'Anyone want out； sing out。'
Radio silence。 On some other frequency where Owen would never go again； the grayboys were pleading in famous voices。 Starboard and below was the little Kiowa OH…58。 Owen didn't need binoculars to see Kurtz with his own hat now turned around； Kurtz watching him。 The newspaper was still on his lap； now for some reason folded into a triangle。 For six years Owen Underhill had needed no second chances； which was good because Kurtz didn't give them … in his heart Owen supposed he had always known that。 He would think about that later； however。 If he had to。 One final coherent thought flared in his mind … You're the cancer； Kurtz； you … and then died。 Here was a fine and perfect darkness in its place。
'Blue Group； this is Blue Boy Leader。 e in on me。 mence firing at two hundred yards。 Avoid hitting the Blue Boy if possible； but we are going to sweep those motherfuckers clean。 Conk； play the Anthem。'
Gene Conklin flicked a switch and racked a CD in the Discman sitting on the floor of Blue Boy Two。 Owen； no longer inside himself； leaned forward in Blue Boy Leader and cranked the volume。
Mick Jagger； the voice of the Rolling Stones； filled his earphones。 Owen raised his hand； saw Kurtz snap him a salute … whether sarcastic or sincere Owen neither knew nor cared … and then Owen brought his arm down。 As Jagger sang it out； sang the Anthem； the one they always played when they went in hot； the helicopters dropped； tightened； and flew to target。
8
The grayboys … the ones that were left … stood beneath the shadow of their ship which lay in turn at the end of the shattered aisle of trees it had destroyed in its final descent。 They made no initial effort to run or hide； in fact half of them actually stepped forward on their naked toeless feet； squelching in the melted snow； the muck； and the scattered fuzz of reddish…gold moss。 These faced the oning line of gunships； long…fingered hands raised； showing that they were empty。 Their huge black eyes gleamed in the dull daylight。
The gunships did not slow； although all of them heard the final transmissions briefly in their heads： Please don't hurt us； we are helpless； we are dying。 With that； twining through it like a pigtail； came the voice of Mick Jagger： 'Please allow me to introduce myself； I'm a man Of wealth and taste； I've been around for many a long year； stolen many man's soul and faith 。 。 。'
The gunships heeled around as briskly as a marching band doing a square turn on the fifty…yard line of the Pose Bowl； and the 。50s opened up。 The bullets plowed into the snow； struck dead branches from already wounded trees； struck pallid little sparks from the edge of the great ship。 They ripped into the bunched grayboys standing with their arms upraised and tore them apart。 Arms spun free of rudimentary bodies； spouting a kind of pink sap。 Heads exploded like gourds； raining a reddish backsplash on their ship and their shipmates … not blood but that mossy stuff； as if their heads were full of it； not really heads at all but grisly produce baskets。 Several of them were cut in two at the midsection and went down with their hands still raised in surrender。 As they fell； the gray bodies went a dirty white and seemed to boil。
Mick Jagger confided： 'I was around when Jesus Christ had His moment of doubt and pain 。 。 。'
A few grays； still standing under the lip of the ship； turned as if to run； but there was nowhere to go。 Most of them were shot down immediately。 The last few survivors … maybe four in all … retreated into the scant shadows。 They seemed to be doing something； fiddling with something； and Owen had a horrible premonition。
'I can get them！' came crackling over the radio。 That was Deforest in Blue Boy Four； almost panting with eagerness。 And； anticipating Owen's order to go for it； the Chinook dropped almost to ground…level； its rotors kicking up snow and muddy water in a filthy blizzard； battering the underbrush flat。
'No； negative； belay that； back off； resume station plus fifty！' Owen shouted； and whacked Tony's shoulder。 Tony； looking only slightly odd in the transparent mask over his mouth and nose； yanked back on the yoke and Blue Boy Leader rose in the unsteady air。 Even over the music … the mad bongos； the chorus going Hoo…hoo； 'Sympathy for the Devil' hadn't played through to its conclusion even a single time； at least not yet … Owen could hear his crew grumbling。 The Kiowa； he saw； was already small with distance。 Whatever his mental peculiarities might be； Kurtz was no fool… And his instincts were exquisite。
'Ah； boss ' Deforest； sounding not just disappointed but on fire。
'Say again； say again； return to station； Blue Group； return…'
The explosion hanmered him back in his seat and tossed the Chinook upward like a toy。 Beneath the roar； he heard Tony Edwards cursing and wrestling with the yoke。 There were screams from behind them； but while most of the crew was injured； they lost only Pinky Bryson； who had been leaning out the bay for a better look and fen when the shockwave hit。
'Got it； got it； got it；' Tony yammered； but Owen thought it was at least thirty seconds before Tony actually did； seconds that felt like hours。 On the sound systems； the Anthem had cut off； a fact that did not bode well for Conk and the boys in Blue Boy Two。
Tony swung Blue Boy Leader around； and Owen saw the windscreen Perspex was cracked in two places。 Behind them someone was still screaming … Mac Cavanaugh； it turned out； had somehow managed to lose two fingers。
'Holy shit；' Tony muttered； and then： 'You saved our bacon； boss。 Thanks。'
Owen barely heard him。 He was looking back at the remains of the ship； which now lay in at least three pieces。 It was hard to tell because the shit was flying and the air had turned a hazy reddish…orange。 It was a little easier to see the remains of Deforest's gunship。 It lay canted on its side 'in the muck with bubbles bursting all around it。 On its port side； a long piece of busted rotor floated in the water like a 'ant's canoe…paddle。 About fifty yards away； more rotors protruded； black and crooked； from a furious ball of yellow…white fire。 That was Conklin and Blue Boy Two。
Graggle and bleep from the radio。 Blakey in Blue Boy Three。 'Boss； hey boss； I see '
'Three； this is Lea