hat's all。 We need an alpha with a plan。〃
My eyes widened。 〃What are you saying； Bacchus？〃
He drew me close to him with our clasped hands。 〃There are still almost one hundred and fifty ablebodied hyenas。 God knows what they'll do to the prisoners now that we've failed them。〃
〃Why do they want Ms。 Blake？〃 Bobby Lee asked。
〃Chimera wants Anita for his mate。〃
That raised my eyebrows。 〃What are you talking about？〃
〃He's got a real hard…on where you're concerned。 I don't know why。〃
I tried to draw my hand out of Bacchus's grip； but he kept me close。 〃He's tried to kill me at least twice。 That doesn't sound so friendly。〃
〃He wanted you dead； now he doesn't； I don't know why。 Chimera's crazy； he doesn't need a reason to change his mind。〃 He gazed up at me； still holding my hand。 〃Please help us。〃
〃Can you guarantee that the other hyenas will follow Ms。 Blake？〃 Bobby Lee asked。
Bacchus looked down； his grip loosened； then it tightened； and he looked up again。 〃I know that if we'd had any alphas that would have stood up for us all； we'd have taken these guys out by now。 But Ulysses loves Ajax； really loves him。 He didn't know what to do。〃
〃What about Narcissus？ He's not still all mushy about Chimera； right？〃 I said。
〃No； but the only time we've been allowed to see Narcissus； he was gagged。〃
〃Narcissus has a reputation；〃 Bobby Lee said； 〃of being a tough bastard。 I don't think he would have rolled over for them。〃
Bacchus shrugged； and I finally freed my hand。 〃I don't know；〃 the werehyena said； 〃but he couldn't tell us to attack them。 For all I know Chimera may have taken his tongue。 He did that to Dionysus； my 。。。 lover。〃 He hugged himself； head down； eyes closed。 〃He gave me the tongue in a box wrapped with a ribbon。〃
I'd been given a box once with pieces of people I cared about in it。 I'd killed the ones who'd hurt them； killed them all。 But the damage done to my friends had been permanent。 Nothing I could do would fix it； because they'd been human； they didn't grow back lost body parts。
Bacchus kept his eyes closed； his face very still； as if he were holding himself tight； afraid to lose control。 I didn't know what to say in the face of his pain。 How did I go from trying to kill him to feeling bad for him？ Maybe it was a girl thing； or maybe I'd been oversocialized as a child。 Whatever the reason； I found myself wanting to help him； but not wanting to risk any of my own people。 Cris was dead on the floor of Narcissus in Chains。 I hadn't known Cris long； his loss wasn't that great to me； it just wasn't。 But if I went in there in force； I'd be risking people I would miss。
Still 。。。 〃Can you draw a plan； a layout of the club； mark where everybody is being held？〃
He opened his eyes； his expression surprised； the tears he'd been holding back trailing down his cheeks； forgotten。 〃You'll help us？〃
I shrugged； unfortable at the frantic relief in his eyes。 〃I'm not sure yet； but it doesn't hurt to find out what we'd be up against。〃
Bacchus took my hand again； pressed it to his cheek。 I thought at first it was going to be some kind of hyena greeting； but he laid a soft kiss on my hand and let me go。 〃Thank you。〃
〃Don't thank me yet； Bacchus； don't thank me yet。〃 I didn't say out loud that if the club looked too hard to take； like it would cost too many lives； I wouldn't do it。 I kept it to myself； because he might lie； make it seem easier。 The person he loved was being tortured。 People will do a lot of things for the person they love； even stupid things。
62
BOBBY LEE INSISTED on calling Rafael first thing。 Nathaniel and Caleb helped me get Bacchus settled in the kitchen。 He was still walking like things hurt。 Gil had sat down at the end of the couch first thing； huddling。 He'd been withdrawn since I told him to stop screaming。 Normally； I'd have asked what was wrong； but screw it； I didn't have time to baby…sit him right now。
The kitchen was dim and depressing with all the windows and the sliding glass door boarded over。 We had to turn on all the lights。 My sunny kitchen had been turned into a cave。
An hour later we had a fair map of the inside of the club。 Bacchus knew the guard schedule for the hyenas but not for Chimera's men。 He did the best he could but said； 〃Chimera changes his routine； sometimes every day； at least every three days。 One day he kept changing his orders every hour or so。 It was weird； weirder even than normal for Chimera。〃
〃How unstable is he？〃 Bobby Lee asked。
Bacchus actually seemed to think about that for a second or two。 I'd thought it was a rhetorical question； maybe I was wrong。 〃Sometimes he seems fine。 Sometimes he's so crazy it scares me。 I think it even scares his own people。〃 Bacchus frowned then said； 〃I heard them say things； like he literally was getting crazier and they were afraid of him； too。〃
The doorbell rang。 It made me jump。 Nathaniel jumped off the kitchen counter； where he'd been sitting。 〃I'll get it。〃
〃Check and see who it is first；〃 I said。
He looked back over his shoulder； the look on his face clearly saying that I was telling him something he already knew。 After months of sharing room and board with me； he knew to check the door before he opened it。
〃You used to just open the door；〃 I said。
〃I know better now；〃 he said and vanished into the living room。
He came back almost immediately。 〃It's the werewolf that was at Narcissus in Chains； the one called Zeke。〃 Nathaniel looked a little pale。
Bobby Lee and I both had guns in our hands。 I didn't really remember drawing mine。 I was looking at the boarded…up windows。 The wood was a little more protection than the glass had been； but we couldn't see through the wood either。 The bad guys could sneak up on us better。 〃Is he alone？〃 I asked。
〃He's the only one standing on the porch；〃 Nathaniel said； 〃but that doesn't mean he's alone。〃 His eyes were a touch wide when he said； 〃I don't smell snakes or lions。〃 I could see the pulse in his neck jumping under his skin。
〃It's going to be alright； Nathaniel；〃 I said。
He nodded； but the look on his face told me he wasn't convinced。 Gil joined us in the kitchen。 〃What's happening？〃
〃Bad guys；〃 I said。
〃More of them？〃 he said； voice plaintive。
〃You might have been safer on your own； Gil；〃 I said。
He nodded。 〃I'm beginning to see that。〃 His eyes were so wide it looked painful。
I had brought the mini…Uzi in from the car and had reloaded it from the gun safe upstairs。 I took it off the kitchen cabinet and debated between it and the Browning。 The doorbell rang again。 I didn't jump this time。 I hung the Uzi over my shoulder by its strap and settled the Browning more fortably in my hand。 The Uzi was really an emergency weapon。 The fact that I'd even thought about answering my door with it on my person was probably a bad sign。 If I needed more than a 9mm to answer my own front door； I should just leave town。
I peered out at the living room； but there was nothing to see but the closed front door。 I was going to have to look out the side window to see what was waiting on the porch。 I approached the door with the Browning in a two…handed grip； staying to one side of the door。 I was ready in case they started shooting through the door。 Of course； last time they'd shot through the windows； too； but the drapes were drawn； and it was the best I was going to be able to do； as far as safety went。
I knelt by the window； because most people shoot for the chest or head； and on my knees I'm a lot shorter。 I eased the drape to one side； and something slapped against the glass。 I jumped back； bringing the gun up； but nothing else happened。 I had an image in my head of what it had been； and it hadn't been a gun。 I thought it had been a picture。 I eased the drape back and found myself staring at a Polaroid of a man chained to a wall。 He was nude； covered in bloody scratches； blood covering most of his body so it was hard to see at first exactly who it was。 Then gradually my eyes made sense of it； and I realized it was Micah。 I sat back abruptly on the floor； almost like I'd fallen。 My hand dragged at the drape； keeping it open。 The gun wasn't where it was supposed to be； but hovered in the air； half…forgotten。 A gag cut across that wide mouth； the delicate face covered in blood and swollen flesh。 The long hair was mounded to one side； as if it were so sticky with blood that it no longer moved freely。 His eyes were closed； and I wondered for a second that lasted forever if he was dead。 But there was something about the way he hung in the chains that said alive。 Even in a picture there is a stillness to death that the live cannot mimic。 Or maybe I'd just seen enough bodies to know。
Bobby Lee was beside me。 〃What is it； what's wrong？〃 Then he saw the picture； and I heard his breath go in sharp。 〃That's your Nimir…Raj； isn't it？〃
I nodded； because I still wasn't breathing； which made it hard to talk。 I closed my eyes for a moment； took a deep cleansing breath； and let it out slowly。 It shook as it left my body。 I cursed silently。 〃Get a handle on it； Anita； you can do better than this。〃
〃What？〃 Bobby Lee asked。
I realized I'd said the last aloud and shook my head； letting the drape fall back into place