He smiled then。 〃I don't know whether I like you； Anita； but you are different； and I always appreciate that。 Now give up the gun like a good little girl； and you can enter my territory。〃 He held his hand out。
I stared at the hand。 I didn't want to give up my gun。 What I'd told Ronnie was true。 I couldn't arm wrestle them； and I would lose a fair fight。 The gun was my equalizer。 I had the two knives； but frankly； they were for emergencies。
〃It is your choice； ma petite。〃
〃If it will help you make the choice；〃 Narcissus said； 〃I have put two of my own personal guards in the room with your leopards。 I have forbidden the others from causing further harm to your people until you arrive。 Until you enter the upper room where they're waiting； nothing more will happen that they don't want to happen。〃 Knowing Nathaniel； that wasn't as forting as it could have been。
If anyone would understand the problem； it would be someone who ran a club like this。 〃Nathaniel is one of those bottoms that will ask for more punishment than he can survive。 He has no stopping point； no ability to keep himself safe。 Do you understand？〃
Narcissus's eyes widened just a touch。 〃Then what was he doing here without a top of his own？〃
〃I sent him out with one that was supposed to watch over him tonight。 But Gregory said that Elizabeth deserted Nathaniel early in the evening。〃
〃Is she one of your leopards； too？〃
I nodded。
〃She's defying you。〃
〃I know。 The fact that Nathaniel suffers for it doesn't seem to bother her。〃
He studied my face。 〃I don't see anger in you about this。〃
〃If I was angry at everything Elizabeth did to piss me off； I'd never be anything else。〃 Truthfully； I was just tired。 Tired of having to rescue the pack from one emergency after another。 Tired of Elizabeth being up in my face and not taking care of the others； even though she was supposedly dominant to them。 I'd avoided punishing her； because I couldn't beat her up； which was what she needed。 The only thing I could do was shoot her。 I'd been trying to avoid that； but she just may have pushed me far enough that I was out of options。 I'd see what actual damage had been done。 If anyone died because of her； then she would follow。 I hated the fact that I didn't care whether I killed her。 I'd known her off and on for over a year。 I should have cared； but I didn't。 I didn't like her； and she'd been asking for it for as long as I'd known her。 My life would be simpler if she were dead。 But there had to be a better reason to kill someone than that。 Didn't there？
〃Some advice；〃 Narcissus said。 〃All dominance challenges； especially from your own people； must be handled quickly； or the problem will spread。〃
〃Thanks。 Actually； I knew that。〃
〃Still she defies you。〃
〃I've been trying to avoid killing her。〃
We looked at each other very quietly； and he gave a small nod。 〃Your gun； please。〃
I sighed and raised the front of my shirt； though the material was stiff enough that I had to roll it back to expose the butt of the gun。 I lifted the gun out and checked the safety out of habit； though I knew it was on。
Narcissus took the gun。 The two bodyguards had moved； blocking the crowd's view of us。 I doubted most people knew what we'd just done。 Narcissus smiled as I rolled my shirt back into place over the now…empty holster。 〃Truthfully； if I didn't know who you were and what your reputation was； I wouldn't have smelled the gun； because I wouldn't have been trying to。 Your outfit doesn't look like it could hide a gun this big。〃
〃Paranoia is the mother of invention；〃 I said。
He gave a small bow of his head。 〃Now enter and enjoy the delights； and the terrors； of my world。〃 With that rather cryptic phrase； he and his bodyguards moved through the crowd； taking my gun with them。
Jean…Claude trailed his fingers down my arm； and that one small movement turned me towards him； my skin shivering。 Tonight was plicated enough without this level of sexual tension。
〃Your cats are well until you enter the upper room。 I suggest we do the mark now； first。〃
〃Why？〃 I asked； my pulse suddenly in my throat。
〃Let us go to our table； and I will explain。〃 He moved off through the crowd； without touching me further。 I followed and couldn't stop myself from watching the way the vinyl fit him from behind。 I loved watching him walk； whether he was ing or going a double threat。
The tables were small； and there weren't many of them crowded against the walls。 But they'd cleared the dance floor so they could set up for some sort of show or demonstration。 Men and women dressed in leather were setting up a framework of metal with lots of leather straps。 I was reeeally hoping to be elsewhere before the show started。
Jean…Claude took me to one side before we got to the table that Jason and three plete strangers were gathered around。 He stepped in so close to me that a hard thought would have made our bodies touch。 I pressed myself against the wall and tried not to breathe。 He put his mouth against my ear and spoke so low what came out was merely the soft sound of his breath against my skin。 〃We will all be safer when the marks are married； but there are other 。。。 benefits to it。 I have many lesser vampires that I have brought into my territory in the last few months； ma petite。 Without you at my side； I dared not bring in greater powers； for fear that I could not hold them。 Once the marks are married between us； you will be able to sense those vampires that are mine。 The exception； as always； is a Master Vampire。 They can hide their allegiances better than the rest。 The marriage of marks will also let my people know who you are； and what will happen to them if they overstep their bounds with you。〃
I spoke； lips barely moving； lower than he had spoken； because he could still hear me。 〃You've had to be very careful； haven't you？〃
He rested his cheek against my face for a moment。 〃It has been a delicate dance to choreograph。〃
I had gone into this evening with my metaphysical shield tight in place。 Marianne had taught me that with my aura ruptured； the other shielding was of paramount importance。 I shielded with stone tonight； perfect； seamless stone。 Nothing could get in； or out； without my permission。 Except Narcissus's power had already danced inside my shields。 I was afraid that touching Jean…Claude would be enough to shatter the stone； but it wasn't。 I wasn't even aware of the shielding； unless I really concentrated。 It could stay in place even when I slept。 Only when you were attacked did you have to concentrate； if you were good at shielding。 I'd spent a week at the beginning of the month in Tennessee with Marianne； working on nothing but this。 I wasn't great at it； but I wasn't bad either。
My shields were in place。 My emotions were drowning in Jean…Claude； but my psyche wasn't； which meant that Marianne was right。 I could hold the dead outside my shield easier than the living。 This gave me the courage to do a little more。 I leaned my face against Jean…Claude's； and nothing happened。 Oh； the feel of his skin against mine sent a thrill through my body； but my shields never wavered。 I felt some tension that I hadn't even known was there ease out of me。 I wanted him to hold me。 It wasn't just sex。 If that was all it was； I could have been rid of him long ago。 He must have felt it； too； because his hands rested lightly on my bare arms。 When I didn't protest； his hands caressed my skin； and that small movement brought my breath to a sigh。
I leaned into him； wrapping my arms around his waist； pressing the lines of our bodies together。 I rested my head on his chest； and I could hear his heart beating。 It didn't always beat； but tonight it did。 We held each other； and it was nearly chaste； just a renewal of the fact that we were touching again。 I'd worked on the metaphysical stuff so I could do this and not lose myself。 It had been worth the effort。
He pulled back first； enough to look into my face。 〃We can marry the marks here； or find somewhere more private。〃 He wasn't whispering as much as before。 Apparently he didn't care now if others knew what we were doing。
〃I'm not clear on what marrying the marks means。〃
〃I thought your Marianne had explained it to you。〃
〃She said we'll fit together like puzzle pieces and there'll be a release of power when it happens。 But she also said that the manner in which it is done is individual to the participants。〃
〃You sound as if you are quoting。〃
〃I am。〃
He frowned； and even that small movement was somehow fascinating。 〃I do not want you to be unpleasantly surprised； ma petite。 I am striving for honesty； since you value it so highly。 I have never done this with anyone； but most things are sexual between us； whether we will or no； so it is likely this will be； too。〃
〃I can't leave the leopards here long enough to grab a hotel room； Jean…Claude。〃
〃They will not be harmed。 Until you go upstairs； they will be safe。〃
I shook my head and pulled away from him。 〃I'm sorry； but I am not leaving here without them。 If you want to do this afterwards； that's fine with me； but the leopards are priority。 They're waiting for me to rescue them。 I can't go off and have what amounts to metaphysical sex while they're afra