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the French call a; veiled voice; The Land o' the Leal。 Now the air
of this lovely song is the same as that of Scots wha hae; but it is
the pibroch of onset changed into the coronach of repose; singing of
the land beyond the battle; of the entering in of those who have
fought the good fight; and fallen in the field。  It is the silence
after the thunder。  Before she had finished; Lady Emily was fast
asleep。  A sweet peaceful half smile lighted her troubled face
graciously; like the sunshine that creeps out when it can; amidst
the rain of an autumn day; saying; 〃I am with you still; though we
are all troubled。〃  Finding her thus at rest; Margaret left the room
for a minute; to fetch some work。  When she returned; she found her
tossing; and moaning; and apparently on the point of waking。  As
soon as she sat down by her; her trouble diminished by degrees; till
she lay in the same peaceful sleep as before。  In this state she
continued for two or three hours; and awoke much refreshed。  She
held out her little hand to Margaret; and said:

〃Thank you。  Thank you。  What a sweet creature you are!〃

And Lady Emily lay and gazed in loving admiration at the face of the
lady's…maid。

〃Shall I send Sarah to you now; my lady?〃 said Margaret; 〃or would
you like me to stay with you?〃

〃Oh! you; you; pleaseif Mrs。 Elton can spare you。〃

〃She will only think of your comfort; I know; my lady。〃

〃That recalls me to my duty; and makes me think of her。〃

〃But your comfort will be more to her than anything else。〃

〃In that case you must stay; Margaret。〃

〃With pleasure; my lady。〃

Mrs。 Elton entered; and quite confirmed what Margaret had said。

〃But;〃 she added; 〃it is time Lady Emily had something to eat。  Go
to the cook; Margaret; and see if the beef…tea Miss Cameron ordered
is ready。〃

Margaret went。

〃What a comfort it is;〃 said Mrs。 Elton; wishing to interest Lady
Emily; 〃that now…a…days; when infidelity is so rampant; such
corroborations of Sacred Writ are springing up on all sides!  There
are the discoveries at Nineveh; and now these Spiritual
Manifestations; which bear witness so clearly to another world。〃

But Lady Emily made no reply。  She began to toss about as before;
and show signs of inexplicable discomfort。  Margaret had hardly been
gone two minutes; when the invalid moaned out:

〃What a time Margaret is gone!when will she be back?〃

〃I am here; my love;〃 said Mrs。 Elton。

〃Yes; yes; thank you。  But I want Margaret。〃

〃She will be here presently。  Have patience; my dear。〃

〃Please; don't let Miss Cameron come near me。  I am afraid I am very
wicked; but I can't bear her to come near me。〃

〃No; no; dear; we will keep you to ourselves。〃

〃Is Mr。; the foreign gentleman; I meanbelow?〃

〃No。 He is gone。〃

〃Are you sure?  I can hardly believe it。〃

〃What do you mean; dear?  I am sure he is gone。〃

Lady Emily did not answer。  Margaret returned。  She took the
beef…tea; and grew quiet again。

〃You must not leave her ladyship; Margaret;〃 whispered her mistress。
〃She has taken it into her head to like no one but you; and you must
just stay with her。〃

〃Very well; ma'am。  I shall be most happy。〃

Mrs。 Elton left the room。  Lady Emily said:

〃Read something to me; Margaret。〃

〃What shall I read?〃

〃Anything you like。〃

Margaret got a Bible; and read to her one of her father's favourite
chapters; the fortieth of Isaiah。

〃I have no right to trust in God; Margaret。〃

〃Why; my lady?〃

〃Because I do not feel any faith in him; and you know we cannot be
accepted without faith。〃

〃That is to make God as changeable as we are; my lady。〃

〃But the Bible says so。〃

〃I don't think it does; but if an angel from heaven said so; I would
not believe it。〃

〃Margaret!〃

〃My lady; I love God with all my heart; and I cannot bear you should
think so of him。  You might as well say that a mother would go away
from her little child; lying moaning in the dark; because it could
not see her; and was afraid to put its hand out into the dark to
feel for her。〃

〃Then you think he does care for us; even when we are very wicked。
But he cannot bear wicked people。〃

〃Who dares to say that?〃 cried Margaret。 〃Has he not been making the
world go on and on; with all the wickedness that is in it; yes;
making new babies to be born of thieves and murderers and sad women
and all; for hundreds of years?  God help us; Lady Emily!  If he
cannot bear wicked people; then this world is hell itself; and the
Bible is all a lie; and the Saviour did never die for sinners。  It
is only the holy Pharisees that can't bear wicked people。〃

〃Oh! how happy I should be; if that were true!  I should not be
afraid now。〃

〃You are not wicked; dear Lady Emily; but if you were; God would
bend over you; trying to get you back; like a father over his sick
child。  Will people never believe about the lost sheep?〃

〃Oh! yes; I believe that。  But then〃

〃You can't trust it quite。  Trust in God; then; the very father of
youand never mind the words。  You have been taught to turn the
very words of God against himself。〃

Lady Emily was weeping。

〃Lady Emily;〃 Margaret went on; 〃if I felt my heart as hard as a
stone; if I did not love God; or man; or woman; or little child; I
would yet say to God in my heart: 'O God; see how I trust thee;
because thou art perfect; and not changeable like me。  I do not love
thee。  I love nobody。  I am not even sorry for it。  Thou seest how
much I need thee to come close to me; to put thy arm round me; to
say to me; my child; for the worse my state; the greater my need of
my father who loves me。  Come to me; and my day will dawn。  My
beauty and my love will come back; and oh! how I shall love thee; my
God! and know that my love is thy love; my blessedness thy being。'〃

As Margaret spoke; she seemed to have forgotten Lady Emily's
presence; and to be actually praying。  Those who cannot receive such
words from the lips of a lady's…maid; must be reminded what her
father was; and that she had lost him。  She had had advantages at
least equal to those which David the Shepherd hadand he wrote the
Psalms。

She ended with:

〃I do not even desire thee to come; yet come thou。〃

She seemed to pray entirely as Lady Emily; not as Margaret。  When
she had ceased; Lady Emily said; sobbing:

〃You will not leave me; Margaret?  I will tell you why another
time。〃

〃I will not leave you; my dear lady。〃

Margaret stooped and kissed her forehead。  Lady Emily threw her arms
round her neck; and offered her mouth to be kissed by the maid。  In
another minute she was fast asleep; with Margaret seated by her
side; every now and then glancing up at her from her work; with a
calm face; over which brooded the mist of tears。

That night; as Hugh paced up and down the floor of his study about
midnight; he was awfully startled by the sudden opening of the door
and the apparition of Harry in his nightshirt; pale as death; and
scarcely able to articulate the words:

〃The ghost! the ghost!〃

He took the poor boy in his arms; held him fast; and comforted him。
When he was a little soothed;

〃Oh; Harry!〃 he said; lightly; 〃you've been dreaming。  Where's the
ghost?〃

〃In the Ghost's Walk;〃 cried Harry; almost shrieking anew with
terror。

〃How do you know it is there?〃

〃I saw it from my window。I couldn't sleep。  I got up and looked
outI don't know whyand I saw it!  I saw it!〃

The words were followed by a long cry of terror。

〃Come and show it to me;〃 said Hugh; wanting to make light of it。

〃No; no; Mr。 Sutherlandplease not。  I couldn't go back into that
room。〃

〃Very well; dear Harry; you shan't go back。  You shall sleep with
me; to…night。〃

〃Oh! thank you; thank you; dear Mr。 Sutherland。  You will love me
again; won't you?〃

This touched Hugh's heart。  He could hardly refrain from tears。  His
old love; buried before it was dead; revived。  He clasped the boy to
his heart; and carried him to his own bed; then; to comfort him;
undressed and lay down beside him; without even going to look if he
too might not see the ghost。  She had brought about one good thing
at least that night; though; I fear; she had no merit in it。

Lady Emily's room likewise looked out upon the Ghost's Walk。
Margaret heard the cry as she sat by the sleeping Emily; and; not
knowing whence it came; went; naturally enough; in her perplexity;
to the window。  From it she could see distinctly; for it was clear
moonlight: a white figure went gliding away along the deserted
avenue。  She immediately guessed what the cry had meant; but as she
had heard a door bang directly after (as Harry shut his behind him
with a terrified instinct; to keep the awful window in); she was not
very uneasy about him。  She felt besides that she must remain where
she was; according to her promise to Lady Emily。  But she resolved
to be prepared for the possible recurrence of the same event; and
accordingly revolved it in her mind。  She was sure that any report
of it coming to Lady Emily's ears; would greatly impede her
recovery; for she instinctively felt that her illness had something
to do with the questionable occupations in the library。  She watched
by her bedside all the n
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