No tree in all the world could have looked more fair than it did just then in its garb of gilded bloom。 With her hand up to her bare neck； and her cheeks indrawn from sucking the sweet； the little model fixed her eyes on the tree。 Her expression did not change； she showed no signs of admiration。 Her gaze passed on to the back windows of the house that really owned the pear…tree； spying out whether anyone could see herhoping； perhaps； someone would see her while she was feeling so nice and new。 Then； dropping the blind； she went back to the glass and began to pin her hair up。 When this was done she stood for a long minute looking at her old brown skirt and blouse； hesitating to defile her new…found purity。 At last she put them on and drew up the blind。 The sunlight had passed off the pear…tree； its bloom was now white； and almost as still as snow。 The little model put another sweet into her mouth； and producing from her pocket an ancient leather purse； counted out her money。 Evidently discovering that it was no more than she expected； she sighed； and rummaged out of a top drawer an old illustrated magazine。
She sat down on the bed； and； turning the leaves rapidly till she reached a certain page； rested the paper in her lap。 Her eyes were fixed on a photograph in the left…hand corner…one of those effigies of writers that appear occasionally in the public press。 Under it were printed the words： 〃Mr。 Hilary Dallison。〃 And suddenly she heaved a sigh。
The room grew darker； the wind； getting up as the sun went down； blew a few dropped petals of the pear…tree against the window…pane。
CHAPTER XII
SHIPS IN SAIL
In due accord with the old butler's comment on his looks； Hilary had felt so young that； instead of going home； he mounted an omnibus； and went down to his clubthe 〃Pen and Ink；〃 so called because the man who founded it could not think at the moment of any other words。 This literary person had left the club soon after its initiation； having conceived for it a sudden dislike。 It had indeed a certain reputation for bad cooking； and all its members complained bitterly at times that you never could go in without meeting someone you knew。 It stood in Dover Street。 Unlike other clubs； it was mainly used to talk in； and had special arrangements for the safety of umbrellas and such books as had not yet vanished from the library； not； of course； owing to any peculative tendency among its members； but because； after interchanging their ideas； those members would depart； in a long row； each grasping some material object in his hand。 Its。 maroon…coloured curtains； too； were never drawn； because； in the heat of their discussions； the members were always drawing them。 On the whole； those members did not like each other much； wondering a little； one by one； why the others wrote； and when the printed reasons were detailed to them； reading them with irritation。 If really compelled to hazard an opinion about each other's merits； they used to say that； no doubt 〃So…and…so〃 was 〃very good；〃 but they had never read him！ For it had early been established as the principle underlying membership not to read the writings of another man； unless you could be certain he was dead； lest you might have to tell him to his face that you disliked his work。 For they were very jealous of the purity of their literary consciences。 Exception was made； however； in the case of those who lived by written criticism； the opinions of such persons being read by all； with a varying smile； and a certain cerebral excitement。 Now and then； however； some member； violating every sense of decency； would take a violent liking for another member's books。 This he would express in words； to the discomfort of his fellows； who； with a sudden chilly feeling in the stomach； would wonder why it was not their books that he was praising。
Almost every year； and generally in March； certain aspirations would pass into the club； members would ask each other why there was no Academy of British Letters； why there was no concerted movement to limit the production of other authors' books； why there was no prize given for the best work of the year。 For a little time it almost seemed as if their individualism were in danger； but； the windows having been opened wider than usual some morning； the aspirations would pass out； and all would feel secretly as a man feels when he has swallowed the mosquito that has been worrying him all night relieved； but just a little bit embarrassed。 Socially sympathetic in their dealings with each otherthey were mostly quite nice fellows each kept a little fame…machine； on which he might be seen sitting every morning about the time the papers and his correspondence came； wondering if his fame were going up。
Hilary stayed in the club till half…past nine； then； avoiding a discussion which was just setting in； he took his own umbrella； and bent his steps towards home。
It was the moment of suspense in Piccadilly； the tide had flowed up to the theatres； and had not yet begun to ebb。 The tranquil trees； still feathery； draped their branches along the farther bank of that broad river； resting from their watch over the tragi…comedies played on its surface by men； their small companions。 The gentle sighs which distilled from their plume…like boughs seemed utterances of the softest wisdom。 Not far beyond their trunks it was all dark velvet； into which separate shapes； adventuring； were lost； as wild birds vanishing in space； or the souls of men received into their Mother's heart。
Hilary walked； hearing no sighs of wisdom； noting no smooth darkness； wrapped in thought。 The mere fact of having given pleasure was enough to produce a warm sensation in a man so naturally kind。 But； as with all self…conscious； self…distrustful； natures； that sensation had not lasted。 He was left with a feeling of emptiness and disillusionment； as of having given himself a good mark without reason。
While walking； he was a target for the eyes of many women； who passed him rapidly； like ships in sail。 The special fastidious shyness of his face attracted those accustomed to another kind of face。 And though he did not precisely look at them； they in turn inspired in him the compassionate； morbid curiosity which persons who live desperate lives necessarily inspire in the leisured； speculative mind。 One of them deliberately approached him from a side…street。 Though taller and fuller； with heightened colour； frizzy hair； and a hat with feathers； she was the image of the little modelthe same shape of face； broad cheek…bones； mouth a little open； the same flower…coloured eyes and short black lashes； all coarsened and accentuated as Art coarsens and accentuates the lines of life。 Looking boldly into Hilary's startled face； she laughed。 Hilary winced and walked on quickly。
He reached home at half…past ten。 The lamp was burning in Mr。 Stone's room； and his window was； as usual； open； that which was not usual； however； was a light in Hilary's own bedroom。 He went gently up。 Through the door…ajar…he saw； to his surprise； the figure of his wife。 She was reclining in a chair； her elbows on its arms； the tips of her fingers pressed together。 Her face； with its dark hair； vivid colouring； and sharp lines； was touched with shadows； her head turned as though towards somebody beside her； her neck gleamed white。 So motionless； dimly seenshe was like a woman sitting alongside her own life； scrutinising； criticising； watching it live； taking no part in it。 Hilary wondered whether to go in or slip away from his strange visitor。
〃Ah！ it's you；〃 she said。
Hilary approached her。 For all her mocking of her own charms； this wife of his was strangely graceful。 After nineteen years in which to learn every line of her face and body； every secret of her nature； she still eluded him； that elusiveness； which had begun by being such a charm； had got on his nerves； and extinguished the flame it had once lighted。 He had so often tried to see； and never seen； the essence of her soul。 Why was she made like this？ Why was she for ever mocking herself； himself； and every other thing？ Why was she so hard to her own life； so bitter a foe to her own happiness？ Leonardo da Vinci might have painted her； less sensual and cruel than his women； more restless and disharmonic； but physically； spiritually enticing； and； by her refusals to surrender either to her spirit or her senses； baffling her own enticements。
〃I don't know why I came；〃 she said。
Hilary found no better answer than： 〃I am sorry I was out to dinner。〃
〃Has the wind gone round？ My room is cold。〃
〃Yes； north…east。 Stay here。〃
Her hand touched his； that warm and restless clasp was agitating。
〃It's good of you to ask me； but we'd better not begin what we can't keep up。〃
〃Stay here；〃 said Hilary again； kneeling down beside her chair。
And suddenly he began to kiss her face and neck。 He felt her answering kisses； for a moment they were clasped together in a fierce embrace。 Then； as though by mutual consent； their arms relaxed； their eyes grew furtive； like the eyes of children who have egged each other on to steal； and on their lips appeared the faintest of faint smiles。 It was as though thos