nlight had come down like a flight of milk…white pigeons； with outspread wings； vibrating faintly as though yet in motion； they covered everything。 Nothing stirred。 A clock was striking two。 Past that flight of milk…white pigeons were black walls as yet unvisited。 Then； in the stillness； Hilary seemed to hear； deep and very faint； the sound as of some monster breathing； or the far beating of muffed drums。 From every side of the pale sleeping town it seemed to come； under the moon's cold glamour。 It rose； and fell； and rose； with a weird； creepy rhythm； like a groaning of the hopeless and hungry。 A hansom cab rattled down the High Street； Hilary strained his ears after the failing clatter of hoofs and bell。 They died； there was silence。 Creeping nearer； drumming； throbbing； he heard again the beating of that vast heart。 It grew and grew。 His own heart began thumping。 Then； emerging from that sinister dumb groan； he distinguished a crunching sound； and knew that it was no muttering echo of men's struggles； but only the waggons journeying to Covent Garden Market。
CHAPTER XIV
A WALK ABROAD
Thyme Dallison； in the midst of her busy life； found leisure to record her recollections and ideas in the pages of old school notebooks。 She had no definite purpose in so doing； nor did she desire the solace of luxuriating in her private feelingsthis she would have scorned as out of date and silly。 It was done from the fulness of youthful energy； and from the desire to express oneself that was 〃in the air。〃 It was everywhere； that desire： among her fellow…students； among her young men friends； in her mother's drawing…room； and her aunt's studio。 Like sentiment and marriage to the Victorian miss； so was this duty to express herself to Thyme； and； going hand…in…hand with it； the duty to have a good and jolly youth。 She never read again the thoughts which she recorded； she took no care to lock them up； knowing that her liberty； development； and pleasure were sacred things which no one would dream of touching she kept them stuffed down in a drawer among her handkerchiefs and ties and blouses； together with the indelible fragment of a pencil。
This journal； naive and slipshod； recorded without order the current impression of things on her mind。
In the early morning of the 4th of May she sat； night…gowned； on the foot of her white bed； with chestnut hair all fluffy about her neck； eyes bright and cheeks still rosy with sleep； scribbling away and rubbing one bare foot against the other in the ecstasy of self… expression。 Now and then； in the middle of a sentence； she would stop and look out of the window； or stretch herself deliciously； as though life were too full of joy for her to finish anything。
〃I went into grandfather's room yesterday； and stayed while he was dictating to the little model。 I do think grandfather's so splendid。 Martin says an enthusiast is worse than useless； people； he says； can't afford to dabble in ideas or dreams。 He calls grandfather's idea paleolithic。 I hate him to be laughed at。 Martin's so cocksure。 I don't think he'd find many men of eighty who'd bathe in the Serpentine all the year round； and do his own room； cook his own food； and live on about ninety pounds a year out of his pension of three hundred； and give all the rest away。 Martin says that's unsound； and the 'Book of Universal Brotherhood' rot。 I don't care if it is； it's fine to go on writing it as he does all day。 Martin admits that。 That's the worst of him： he's so cool； you can't score him off； he seems to be always criticising you； it makes me wild。。。。 That little model is a hopeless duffer。 I could have taken it all down in half the time。 She kept stopping and looking up with that mouth of hers half open； as if she had all day before her。 Grandfather's so absorbed he doesn't notice； he likes to read the thing over and over； to hear how the words sound。 That girl would be no good at any sort of work； except 'sitting；' I suppose。 Aunt B。 used to say she sat well。 There's something queer about her face； it reminds me a little of that Botticelli Madonna in the National Gallery； the full…face one； not so much in the shape as in the expressionalmost stupid； and yet as if things were going to happen to her。 Her hands and arms are pretty； and her feet are smaller than mine。 She's two years older than me。 I asked her why she went in for being a model； which is beastly work。 She said she was glad to get anything！ I asked her why she didn't go into a shop or into service。 She didn't answer at once； and then said she hadn't had any recommendationsdidn't know where to try； then； all of a sudden； she grew quite sulky； and said she didn't want to。。。。〃
Thyme paused to pencil in a sketch of the little model's profile。。。。
〃She had on a really pretty frock； quite simple and well madeit must have cost three or four pounds。 She can't be so very badly off； or somebody gave it her。。。。〃
And again Thyme paused。
〃She looked ever so much prettier in it than she used to in her old brown skirt； I thought 。。。。 Uncle Hilary came to dinner last night。 We talked of social questions； we always discuss things when he comes。 I can't help liking Uncle Hilary； he has such kind eyes； and he's so gentle that you never lose your temper with him。 Martin calls him weak and unsatisfactory because he's not in touch with life。 I should say it was more as if he couldn't bear to force anyone to do anything； he seems to see both sides of every question； and he's not good at making up his mind； of course。 He's rather like Hamlet might have been； only nobody seems to know now what Hamlet was really like。 I told him what I thought about the lower classes。 One can talk to him。 I hate father's way of making feeble little jokes； as if nothing were serious。 I said I didn't think it was any use to dabble； we ought to go to the root of everything。 I said that money and class distinctions are two bogeys we have got to lay。 Martin says； when it comes to real dealing with social questions and the poor； all the people we know are amateurs。 He says that we have got to shake ourselves free of all the old sentimental notions； and just work at putting everything to the test of Health。 Father calls Martin a 'Sanitist'；； and Uncle Hilary says that if you wash people by law they'll all be as dirty again tomorrow。。。。〃
Thyme paused again。 A blackbird in the garden of the Square was uttering a long； low； chuckling trill。 She ran to the window and peeped out。 The bird was on a plane…tree； and； with throat uplifted； was letting through his yellow beak that delicious piece of self… expression。 All things he seemed to praisethe sky； the sun； the trees； the dewy grass； himself：
'You darling！' thought Thyme。 With a shudder of delight she dropped her notebook back into the drawer； flung off her nightgown； and flew into her bath。
That same morning she slipped out quietly at ten o'clock。 Her Saturdays were free of classes； but she had to run the gauntlet of her mother's liking for her company and her father's wish for her to go with him to Richmond and play golf。
For on Saturdays Stephen almost always left the precincts of the Courts before three o'clock。 Then； if he could induce his wife or daughter to accompany him； he liked to get a round or two in preparation for Sunday； when he always started off at half…past ten and played all day。 If Cecilia and Thyme failed him； he would go to his club； and keep himself in touch with every kind of social movement by reading the reviews。
Thyme walked along with her head up and a wrinkle in her brow； as though she were absorbed in serious reflection； if admiring glances were flung at her； she did not seem aware of them。 Passing not far from Hilary's； she entered the Broad Walk； and crossed it to the farther end。
On a railing； stretching out his long legs and observing the passers… by； sat her cousin； Martin Stone。 He got down as she came up。
〃Late again；〃 he said。 〃Come on！〃
〃Where are we going first？〃 Thyme asked。
〃The Notting Hill district's all we can do to…day if we're to go again to Mrs。 Hughs'。 I must be down at the hospital this afternoon。〃
Thyme frowned。 〃I do envy you living by yourself； Martin。 It's silly having to live at home。〃
Martin did not answer； but one nostril of his long nose was seen to curve； and Thyme acquiesced in this without remark。 They walked for some minutes between tall houses； looking about them calmly。 Then Martin said： 〃All Purceys round here。〃
Thyme nodded。 Again there was silence； but in these pauses there was no embarrassment； no consciousness apparently that it was silence； and their eyesthose young； impatient； interested eyeswere for ever busy observing。
〃Boundary line。 We shall be in a patch directly。〃
〃Black？〃 asked Thyme。
〃Dark blueblack farther on。〃
They were passing down a long； grey； curving road； whose narrow houses； hopelessly unpainted； showed marks of grinding poverty。 The Spring wind was ruffling straw and little bits of paper in the gutters； under the bright sunlight a bleak and bitter struggle seemed raging。 Thyme said：
〃This street gives me a hollow feeling。〃
Martin nodded。 〃 Worse than the real art