¡¶confessions of an english opium-eater¡·

ÏÂÔر¾Êé

Ìí¼ÓÊéÇ©

confessions of an english opium-eater- µÚ12²¿·Ö


°´¼üÅÌÉÏ·½Ïò¼ü ¡û »ò ¡ú ¿É¿ìËÙÉÏÏ·­Ò³£¬°´¼üÅÌÉ쵀 Enter ¼ü¿É»Øµ½±¾ÊéĿ¼ҳ£¬°´¼üÅÌÉÏ·½Ïò¼ü ¡ü ¿É»Øµ½±¾Ò³¶¥²¿£¡
upwards¡¡of¡¡eight¡¡hours£»¡¡so¡¡that¡¡it¡¡must¡¡be¡¡the¡¡fault¡¡of¡¡the¡¡opium¡­eater¡¡himself¡¡if¡¡he¡¡does¡¡not¡¡so¡¡time¡¡his¡¡exhibition¡¡of¡¡the¡¡dose¡¡£¨to¡¡speak¡¡medically£©¡¡as¡¡that¡¡the¡¡whole¡¡weight¡¡of¡¡its¡¡narcotic¡¡influence¡¡may¡¡descend¡¡upon¡¡his¡¡sleep¡£¡¡¡¡Turkish¡¡opium¡­eaters£»¡¡it¡¡seems£»¡¡are¡¡absurd¡¡enough¡¡to¡¡sit£»¡¡like¡¡so¡¡many¡¡equestrian¡¡statues£»¡¡on¡¡logs¡¡of¡¡wood¡¡as¡¡stupid¡¡as¡¡themselves¡£¡¡¡¡But¡¡that¡¡the¡¡reader¡¡may¡¡judge¡¡of¡¡the¡¡degree¡¡in¡¡which¡¡opium¡¡is¡¡likely¡¡to¡¡stupefy¡¡the¡¡faculties¡¡of¡¡an¡¡Englishman£»¡¡I¡¡shall¡¡£¨by¡¡way¡¡of¡¡treating¡¡the¡¡question¡¡illustratively£»¡¡rather¡¡than¡¡argumentatively£©¡¡describe¡¡the¡¡way¡¡in¡¡which¡¡I¡¡myself¡¡often¡¡passed¡¡an¡¡opium¡¡evening¡¡in¡¡London¡¡during¡¡the¡¡period¡¡between¡¡1804¡­1812¡£¡¡¡¡It¡¡will¡¡be¡¡seen¡¡that¡¡at¡¡least¡¡opium¡¡did¡¡not¡¡move¡¡me¡¡to¡¡seek¡¡solitude£»¡¡and¡¡much¡¡less¡¡to¡¡seek¡¡inactivity£»¡¡or¡¡the¡¡torpid¡¡state¡¡of¡¡self¡­involution¡¡ascribed¡¡to¡¡the¡¡Turks¡£¡¡¡¡I¡¡give¡¡this¡¡account¡¡at¡¡the¡¡risk¡¡of¡¡being¡¡pronounced¡¡a¡¡crazy¡¡enthusiast¡¡or¡¡visionary£»¡¡but¡¡I¡¡regard¡¡THAT¡¡little¡£¡¡¡¡I¡¡must¡¡desire¡¡my¡¡reader¡¡to¡¡bear¡¡in¡¡mind¡¡that¡¡I¡¡was¡¡a¡¡hard¡¡student£»¡¡and¡¡at¡¡severe¡¡studies¡¡for¡¡all¡¡the¡¡rest¡¡of¡¡my¡¡time£»¡¡and¡¡certainly¡¡I¡¡had¡¡a¡¡right¡¡occasionally¡¡to¡¡relaxations¡¡as¡¡well¡¡as¡¡other¡¡people¡£¡¡¡¡These£»¡¡however£»¡¡I¡¡allowed¡¡myself¡¡but¡¡seldom¡£

The¡¡late¡¡Duke¡¡ofused¡¡to¡¡say£»¡¡¡¨Next¡¡Friday£»¡¡by¡¡the¡¡blessing¡¡of¡¡heaven£»¡¡I¡¡purpose¡¡to¡¡be¡¡drunk£»¡¨¡¡and¡¡in¡¡like¡¡manner¡¡I¡¡used¡¡to¡¡fix¡¡beforehand¡¡how¡¡often¡¡within¡¡a¡¡given¡¡time£»¡¡and¡¡when£»¡¡I¡¡would¡¡commit¡¡a¡¡debauch¡¡of¡¡opium¡£¡¡¡¡This¡¡was¡¡seldom¡¡more¡¡than¡¡once¡¡in¡¡three¡¡weeks£»¡¡for¡¡at¡¡that¡¡time¡¡I¡¡could¡¡not¡¡have¡¡ventured¡¡to¡¡call¡¡every¡¡day£»¡¡as¡¡I¡¡did¡¡afterwards£»¡¡for¡¡¡¨A¡¡GLASS¡¡OF¡¡LAUDANUM¡¡NEGUS£»¡¡WARM£»¡¡AND¡¡WITHOUT¡¡SUGAR¡£¡¨¡¡¡¡No£»¡¡as¡¡I¡¡have¡¡said£»¡¡I¡¡seldom¡¡drank¡¡laudanum£»¡¡at¡¡that¡¡time£»¡¡more¡¡than¡¡once¡¡in¡¡three¡¡weeks£º¡¡¡¡This¡¡was¡¡usually¡¡on¡¡a¡¡Tuesday¡¡or¡¡a¡¡Saturday¡¡night£»¡¡my¡¡reason¡¡for¡¡which¡¡was¡¡this¡£¡¡¡¡In¡¡those¡¡days¡¡Grassini¡¡sang¡¡at¡¡the¡¡Opera£»¡¡and¡¡her¡¡voice¡¡was¡¡delightful¡¡to¡¡me¡¡beyond¡¡all¡¡that¡¡I¡¡had¡¡ever¡¡heard¡£¡¡¡¡I¡¡know¡¡not¡¡what¡¡may¡¡be¡¡the¡¡state¡¡of¡¡the¡¡Opera¡­house¡¡now£»¡¡having¡¡never¡¡been¡¡within¡¡its¡¡walls¡¡for¡¡seven¡¡or¡¡eight¡¡years£»¡¡but¡¡at¡¡that¡¡time¡¡it¡¡was¡¡by¡¡much¡¡the¡¡most¡¡pleasant¡¡place¡¡of¡¡public¡¡resort¡¡in¡¡London¡¡for¡¡passing¡¡an¡¡evening¡£¡¡¡¡Five¡¡shillings¡¡admitted¡¡one¡¡to¡¡the¡¡gallery£»¡¡which¡¡was¡¡subject¡¡to¡¡far¡¡less¡¡annoyance¡¡than¡¡the¡¡pit¡¡of¡¡the¡¡theatres£»¡¡the¡¡orchestra¡¡was¡¡distinguished¡¡by¡¡its¡¡sweet¡¡and¡¡melodious¡¡grandeur¡¡from¡¡all¡¡English¡¡orchestras£»¡¡the¡¡composition¡¡of¡¡which£»¡¡I¡¡confess£»¡¡is¡¡not¡¡acceptable¡¡to¡¡my¡¡ear£»¡¡from¡¡the¡¡predominance¡¡of¡¡the¡¡clamorous¡¡instruments¡¡and¡¡the¡¡absolute¡¡tyranny¡¡of¡¡the¡¡violin¡£¡¡¡¡The¡¡choruses¡¡were¡¡divine¡¡to¡¡hear£»¡¡and¡¡when¡¡Grassini¡¡appeared¡¡in¡¡some¡¡interlude£»¡¡as¡¡she¡¡often¡¡did£»¡¡and¡¡poured¡¡forth¡¡her¡¡passionate¡¡soul¡¡as¡¡Andromache¡¡at¡¡the¡¡tomb¡¡of¡¡Hector£»¡¡&c¡££»¡¡I¡¡question¡¡whether¡¡any¡¡Turk£»¡¡of¡¡all¡¡that¡¡ever¡¡entered¡¡the¡¡Paradise¡¡of¡¡Opium¡­eaters£»¡¡can¡¡have¡¡had¡¡half¡¡the¡¡pleasure¡¡I¡¡had¡£¡¡¡¡But£»¡¡indeed£»¡¡I¡¡honour¡¡the¡¡barbarians¡¡too¡¡much¡¡by¡¡supposing¡¡them¡¡capable¡¡of¡¡any¡¡pleasures¡¡approaching¡¡to¡¡the¡¡intellectual¡¡ones¡¡of¡¡an¡¡Englishman¡£¡¡¡¡For¡¡music¡¡is¡¡an¡¡intellectual¡¡or¡¡a¡¡sensual¡¡pleasure¡¡according¡¡to¡¡the¡¡temperament¡¡of¡¡him¡¡who¡¡hears¡¡it¡£¡¡¡¡And£»¡¡by¡­¡¡the¡­bye£»¡¡with¡¡the¡¡exception¡¡of¡¡the¡¡fine¡¡extravaganza¡¡on¡¡that¡¡subject¡¡in¡¡¡¨Twelfth¡¡Night£»¡¨¡¡I¡¡do¡¡not¡¡recollect¡¡more¡¡than¡¡one¡¡thing¡¡said¡¡adequately¡¡on¡¡the¡¡subject¡¡of¡¡music¡¡in¡¡all¡¡literature£»¡¡it¡¡is¡¡a¡¡passage¡¡in¡¡the¡¡Religio¡¡Medici¡¡£û14£ý¡¡of¡¡Sir¡¡T¡£¡¡Brown£»¡¡and¡¡though¡¡chiefly¡¡remarkable¡¡for¡¡its¡¡sublimity£»¡¡has¡¡also¡¡a¡¡philosophic¡¡value£»¡¡inasmuch¡¡as¡¡it¡¡points¡¡to¡¡the¡¡true¡¡theory¡¡of¡¡musical¡¡effects¡£¡¡¡¡The¡¡mistake¡¡of¡¡most¡¡people¡¡is¡¡to¡¡suppose¡¡that¡¡it¡¡is¡¡by¡¡the¡¡ear¡¡they¡¡communicate¡¡with¡¡music£»¡¡and¡¡therefore¡¡that¡¡they¡¡are¡¡purely¡¡passive¡¡to¡¡its¡¡effects¡£¡¡¡¡But¡¡this¡¡is¡¡not¡¡so£»¡¡it¡¡is¡¡by¡¡the¡¡reaction¡¡of¡¡the¡¡mind¡¡upon¡¡the¡¡notices¡¡of¡¡the¡¡ear¡¡£¨the¡¡MATTER¡¡coming¡¡by¡¡the¡¡senses£»¡¡the¡¡FORM¡¡from¡¡the¡¡mind£©¡¡that¡¡the¡¡pleasure¡¡is¡¡constructed£»¡¡and¡¡therefore¡¡it¡¡is¡¡that¡¡people¡¡of¡¡equally¡¡good¡¡ear¡¡differ¡¡so¡¡much¡¡in¡¡this¡¡point¡¡from¡¡one¡¡another¡£¡¡¡¡Now£»¡¡opium£»¡¡by¡¡greatly¡¡increasing¡¡the¡¡activity¡¡of¡¡the¡¡mind£»¡¡generally¡¡increases£»¡¡of¡¡necessity£»¡¡that¡¡particular¡¡mode¡¡of¡¡its¡¡activity¡¡by¡¡which¡¡we¡¡are¡¡able¡¡to¡¡construct¡¡out¡¡of¡¡the¡¡raw¡¡material¡¡of¡¡organic¡¡sound¡¡an¡¡elaborate¡¡intellectual¡¡pleasure¡£¡¡¡¡But£»¡¡says¡¡a¡¡friend£»¡¡a¡¡succession¡¡of¡¡musical¡¡sounds¡¡is¡¡to¡¡me¡¡like¡¡a¡¡collection¡¡of¡¡Arabic¡¡characters£»¡¡I¡¡can¡¡attach¡¡no¡¡ideas¡¡to¡¡them¡£¡¡¡¡Ideas£¡¡¡my¡¡good¡¡sir£¿¡¡¡¡There¡¡is¡¡no¡¡occasion¡¡for¡¡them£»¡¡all¡¡that¡¡class¡¡of¡¡ideas¡¡which¡¡can¡¡be¡¡available¡¡in¡¡such¡¡a¡¡case¡¡has¡¡a¡¡language¡¡of¡¡representative¡¡feelings¡£¡¡¡¡But¡¡this¡¡is¡¡a¡¡subject¡¡foreign¡¡to¡¡my¡¡present¡¡purposes£»¡¡it¡¡is¡¡sufficient¡¡to¡¡say¡¡that¡¡a¡¡chorus£»¡¡&c¡££»¡¡of¡¡elaborate¡¡harmony¡¡displayed¡¡before¡¡me£»¡¡as¡¡in¡¡a¡¡piece¡¡of¡¡arras¡¡work£»¡¡the¡¡whole¡¡of¡¡my¡¡past¡¡lifenot¡¡as¡¡if¡¡recalled¡¡by¡¡an¡¡act¡¡of¡¡memory£»¡¡but¡¡as¡¡if¡¡present¡¡and¡¡incarnated¡¡in¡¡the¡¡music£»¡¡no¡¡longer¡¡painful¡¡to¡¡dwell¡¡upon£»¡¡but¡¡the¡¡detail¡¡of¡¡its¡¡incidents¡¡removed¡¡or¡¡blended¡¡in¡¡some¡¡hazy¡¡abstraction£»¡¡and¡¡its¡¡passions¡¡exalted£»¡¡spiritualized£»¡¡and¡¡sublimed¡£¡¡¡¡All¡¡this¡¡was¡¡to¡¡be¡¡had¡¡for¡¡five¡¡shillings¡£¡¡¡¡And¡¡over¡¡and¡¡above¡¡the¡¡music¡¡of¡¡the¡¡stage¡¡and¡¡the¡¡orchestra£»¡¡I¡¡had¡¡all¡¡around¡¡me£»¡¡in¡¡the¡¡intervals¡¡of¡¡the¡¡performance£»¡¡the¡¡music¡¡of¡¡the¡¡Italian¡¡language¡¡talked¡¡by¡¡Italian¡¡womenfor¡¡the¡¡gallery¡¡was¡¡usually¡¡crowded¡¡with¡¡Italiansand¡¡I¡¡listened¡¡with¡¡a¡¡pleasure¡¡such¡¡as¡¡that¡¡with¡¡which¡¡Weld¡¡the¡¡traveller¡¡lay¡¡and¡¡listened£»¡¡in¡¡Canada£»¡¡to¡¡the¡¡sweet¡¡laughter¡¡of¡¡Indian¡¡women£»¡¡for¡¡the¡¡less¡¡you¡¡understand¡¡of¡¡a¡¡language£»¡¡the¡¡more¡¡sensible¡¡you¡¡are¡¡to¡¡the¡¡melody¡¡or¡¡harshness¡¡of¡¡its¡¡sounds¡£¡¡¡¡For¡¡such¡¡a¡¡purpose£»¡¡therefore£»¡¡it¡¡was¡¡an¡¡advantage¡¡to¡¡me¡¡that¡¡I¡¡was¡¡a¡¡poor¡¡Italian¡¡scholar£»¡¡reading¡¡it¡¡but¡¡little£»¡¡and¡¡not¡¡speaking¡¡it¡¡at¡¡all£»¡¡nor¡¡understanding¡¡a¡¡tenth¡¡part¡¡of¡¡what¡¡I¡¡heard¡¡spoken¡£

These¡¡were¡¡my¡¡opera¡¡pleasures£»¡¡but¡¡another¡¡pleasure¡¡I¡¡had¡¡which£»¡¡as¡¡it¡¡could¡¡be¡¡had¡¡only¡¡on¡¡a¡¡Saturday¡¡night£»¡¡occasionally¡¡struggled¡¡with¡¡my¡¡love¡¡of¡¡the¡¡Opera£»¡¡for¡¡at¡¡that¡¡time¡¡Tuesday¡¡and¡¡Saturday¡¡were¡¡the¡¡regular¡¡opera¡¡nights¡£¡¡¡¡On¡¡this¡¡subject¡¡I¡¡am¡¡afraid¡¡I¡¡shall¡¡be¡¡rather¡¡obscure£»¡¡but¡¡I¡¡can¡¡assure¡¡the¡¡reader¡¡not¡¡at¡¡all¡¡more¡¡so¡¡than¡¡Marinus¡¡in¡¡his¡¡Life¡¡of¡¡Proclus£»¡¡or¡¡many¡¡other¡¡biographers¡¡and¡¡autobiographers¡¡of¡¡fair¡¡reputation¡£¡¡¡¡This¡¡pleasure£»¡¡I¡¡have¡¡said£»¡¡was¡¡to¡¡be¡¡had¡¡only¡¡on¡¡a¡¡Saturday¡¡night¡£¡¡¡¡What£»¡¡then£»¡¡was¡¡Saturday¡¡night¡¡to¡¡me¡¡more¡¡than¡¡any¡¡other¡¡night£¿¡¡¡¡I¡¡had¡¡no¡¡labours¡¡that¡¡I¡¡rested¡¡from£»¡¡no¡¡wages¡¡to¡¡receive£»¡¡what¡¡needed¡¡I¡¡to¡¡care¡¡for¡¡Saturday¡¡night£»¡¡more¡¡than¡¡as¡¡it¡¡was¡¡a¡¡summons¡¡to¡¡hear¡¡Grassini£¿¡¡¡¡True£»¡¡most¡¡logical¡¡reader£»¡¡what¡¡you¡¡say¡¡is¡¡unanswerable¡£¡¡¡¡And¡¡yet¡¡so¡¡it¡¡was¡¡and¡¡is£»¡¡that¡¡whereas¡¡different¡¡men¡¡throw¡¡their¡¡feelings¡¡into¡¡different¡¡channels£»¡¡and¡¡most¡¡are¡¡apt¡¡to¡¡show¡¡their¡¡interest¡¡in¡¡the¡¡concerns¡¡of¡¡the¡¡poor¡¡chiefly¡¡by¡¡sympathy£»¡¡expressed¡¡in¡¡some¡¡shape¡¡or¡¡other£»¡¡with¡¡their¡¡distresses¡¡and¡¡sorrows£»¡¡I¡¡at¡¡that¡¡time¡¡was¡¡disposed¡¡to¡¡express¡¡my¡¡interest¡¡by¡¡sympathising¡¡with¡¡their¡¡pleasures¡£¡¡¡¡The¡¡pains¡¡of¡¡poverty¡¡I¡¡had¡¡lately¡¡seen¡¡too¡¡much¡¡of£»¡¡more¡¡than¡¡I¡¡wished¡¡to¡¡remember£»¡¡but¡¡the¡¡pleasures¡¡of¡¡the¡¡poor£»¡¡their¡¡consolations¡¡of¡¡spirit£»¡¡and¡¡their¡¡reposes¡¡from¡¡bodily¡¡toil£»¡¡can¡¡never¡¡become¡¡oppressive¡¡to¡¡contemplate¡£¡¡¡¡Now¡¡Saturday¡¡night¡¡is¡¡the¡¡season¡¡for¡¡the¡¡chief£»¡¡regular£»¡¡and¡¡periodic¡¡return¡¡of¡¡rest¡¡of¡¡the¡¡poor£»¡¡in¡¡this¡¡point¡¡the¡¡most¡¡hostile¡¡sects¡¡unite£»¡¡and¡¡acknowledge¡¡a¡¡common¡¡link¡¡of¡¡brotherhood£»¡¡almost¡¡all¡¡Christendom¡¡rests¡¡from¡¡its¡¡labours¡£¡¡¡¡It¡¡is¡¡a¡¡rest¡¡introductory¡¡to¡¡another¡¡rest£»¡¡and¡¡divided¡¡by¡¡a¡¡whole¡¡day¡¡and¡¡two¡¡nights¡¡from¡¡the¡¡renewal¡¡of¡¡toil¡£¡¡¡¡On¡¡this¡¡account¡¡I¡¡feel¡¡always£»¡¡on¡¡a¡¡Saturday¡¡night£»¡¡as¡¡though¡¡I¡¡also¡¡were¡¡released¡¡from¡¡some¡¡yoke¡¡of¡¡labour£»¡¡had¡¡some¡¡wages¡¡to¡¡receive£»¡¡and¡¡some¡¡luxury¡¡of¡¡repose¡¡to¡¡enjoy¡£¡¡¡¡For¡¡the¡¡sake£»¡¡therefore£»¡¡of¡¡witnessing£»¡¡upon¡¡as¡¡large¡¡a¡¡scale¡¡as¡¡possible£»¡¡a¡¡spectacle¡¡with¡¡which¡¡my¡¡sympathy¡¡was¡¡so¡¡entire£»¡¡I¡¡used¡¡often¡¡on¡¡Saturday¡¡nights£»¡¡after¡¡I¡¡had¡¡taken¡¡opium£»¡¡to¡¡wander¡¡forth£»¡¡without¡¡much¡¡regarding¡¡the¡¡direction¡¡or¡¡the¡¡distance£»¡¡to¡¡all¡¡the¡¡markets¡¡and¡¡other¡¡parts¡¡of¡¡London¡¡to¡¡which¡¡the¡¡poor¡¡resort¡¡of¡¡a¡¡Saturday¡¡night£»¡¡for¡¡laying¡¡out¡¡their¡¡wages¡£¡¡¡¡Many¡¡a¡¡family¡¡party£»¡¡consisting¡¡of¡¡a¡¡man£»¡¡his¡¡wife£»¡¡and¡¡sometimes¡¡one¡¡or¡¡two¡¡of¡¡his¡¡children£»¡¡have¡¡I¡¡listened¡¡to£»¡¡as¡¡they¡¡stood¡¡consulting¡¡on¡¡their¡¡ways¡¡and¡¡means£»¡¡or¡¡the¡¡strength¡¡of¡¡their¡¡exchequer£»¡¡or¡¡the¡¡price¡¡of¡¡household¡¡articles¡£¡¡¡¡Gradually¡¡I¡¡became¡¡familiar¡¡with¡¡their¡¡wishes£»¡¡their¡¡difficulties£»¡¡and¡¡their¡¡opinions¡£¡¡¡¡Sometimes¡¡there¡¡might¡¡be¡¡heard¡¡murmurs¡¡of¡¡discontent£»¡¡but¡¡far¡¡oftener¡¡expressions¡¡on¡¡the¡¡countenance£»¡¡or¡¡uttered¡¡in¡¡words£»¡¡of¡¡patience£»¡¡hope£»¡¡and¡¡tranquillity¡£¡¡¡¡And¡¡taken¡¡generally£»¡¡I¡¡must¡¡say¡¡that£»¡¡in¡¡this¡¡point¡¡at¡¡least£»¡¡the¡¡poor¡¡are¡¡more¡¡philosophic¡¡than¡¡the¡¡richthat¡¡they¡¡show¡¡a¡¡more¡¡ready¡¡and¡¡cheerful¡¡submission¡¡to¡¡what¡¡they¡¡consider¡¡as¡¡irremediable¡¡evils¡¡or¡¡irreparable¡¡losses¡£¡¡¡¡Whenever¡¡I¡¡saw¡¡occasion£»¡¡or¡¡could¡¡do¡¡it¡¡without¡¡appearing¡¡to¡¡be¡¡intrusive£»¡¡I¡¡joined¡¡their¡¡parties£»¡¡and¡¡gave¡¡my¡¡opinion¡¡upon¡¡the¡¡matter¡¡in¡¡discussion£»¡¡which£»¡¡if¡¡not¡¡always¡¡judicious£»¡¡was¡¡always¡¡received¡¡indulgently¡£¡¡¡¡If¡¡wages¡¡were¡¡a¡¡little¡¡higher¡¡or¡¡expected¡¡to¡¡be¡¡so£»¡¡or¡¡the¡¡quartern¡¡loaf¡¡a¡¡little¡¡lower£»¡¡or¡¡it¡¡was¡¡reported¡¡that¡¡onions¡¡and¡¡butter¡¡were¡¡expected¡¡to¡¡fall£»¡¡I¡¡was¡¡glad£»¡¡yet£»¡¡if¡¡the¡¡contrary¡¡were¡¡true£»¡¡I¡¡drew¡¡from¡¡opium¡¡some¡¡means¡¡of¡¡consoling¡¡myself¡£¡¡¡¡For¡¡opium¡¡£¨like¡¡the¡¡bee£»¡¡that¡¡extracts¡¡its¡¡materials¡¡indiscriminately¡¡from¡¡roses¡¡and¡¡from¡¡the¡¡soot¡¡of¡¡chimneys£©¡¡can¡¡overrule¡¡all¡¡feelings¡¡into¡¡compliance¡¡with¡¡the¡¡master¡­key¡£¡¡¡¡Some¡¡of¡¡these¡¡rambles¡¡led¡¡me¡¡to¡¡great¡¡distances£»¡¡for¡¡an¡¡opium¡­eater¡¡is¡¡too¡¡happy¡¡to¡¡observe¡¡the¡¡motion¡¡of¡¡time£»¡¡and¡¡sometimes¡¡in¡¡my¡¡attempts¡¡to¡¡steer¡¡homeward
СÌáʾ£º°´ »Ø³µ [Enter] ¼ü ·µ»ØÊéÄ¿£¬°´ ¡û ¼ü ·µ»ØÉÏÒ»Ò³£¬ °´ ¡ú ¼ü ½øÈëÏÂÒ»Ò³¡£ ÔÞһϠÌí¼ÓÊéÇ©¼ÓÈëÊé¼Ü