ee a faint glow of colour on the darkness。 。 。 。 〃 Dr。 Martineau sat without a word。 〃I can believe that over all things Righteousness rules。 I can believe that。 But Righteousness is not friendliness nor mercy nor comfort nor any such dear and intimate things。 This cuddling up to Righteousness！ It is a dream； a delusion and a phase。 I've tried all that long ago。 I've given it up long ago。 I've grown out of it。 Men doafter forty。 Our souls were made in the squatting…place of the submen of ancient times。 They are made out of primitive needs and they die before our bodies as those needs are satisfied。 Only young people have souls； complete。 The need for a personal God； feared but reassuring； is a youth's need。 I no longer fear the Old Man nor want to propitiate the Old Man nor believe he matters any more。 I'm a bit of an Old Man myself I discover。 Yes。 But the other thing still remains。 〃 〃The Great Mother of the Gods；〃 said Dr。 Martineaustill clinging to his theories。 〃The need of the woman；〃 said Sir Richmond。 〃I want mating because it is my nature to mate。 I want fellowship because I am a social animal and I want it from another social animal。 Not from any Godany inconceivable God。 Who fades and disappears。 No。 。 。 。 〃Perhaps that other need will fade presently。 I do not know。 Perhaps it lasts as long as life does。 How can I tell？〃 He was silent for a little while。 Then his voice sounded in the night； as if he spoke to himself。 〃But as for the God of All Things consoling and helping！ Imagine it！ That up there having fellowship with me！ I would as soon think of cooling my throat with the Milky Way or shaking hands with those stars。〃
CHAPTER THE FIFTH IN THE LAND OF THE FORGOTTEN PEOPLES
Section 1 A gust of confidence on the part of a person naturally or habitually reserved will often be followed by a phase of recoil。 At breakfast next morning their overnight talk seemed to both Sir Richmond and Dr。 Martineau like something each had dreamt about the other； a quite impossible excess of intimacy。 They discussed the weather； which seemed to be settling down to the utmost serenity of which the English spring is capable； they talked of Sir Richmond's coming car and of the possible routes before them。 Sir Richmond produced the Michelin maps which he had taken out of the pockets of the little Charmeuse。 The Bath Road lay before them； he explained； Reading； Newbury； Hungerford； Marlborough； Silbury Hill which overhangs Avebury。 Both travellers discovered a common excitement at the mention of Avebury and Silbury Hill。 Both took an intelligent interest in archaeology。 Both had been greatly stimulated by the recent work of Elliot Smith and Rivers upon what was then known as the Heliolithic culture。 It had revived their interest in Avebury and Stonehenge。 The doctor moreover had been reading Hippisley Cox's GREEN ROADS OF ENGLAND。 Neither gentleman had ever seen Avebury； but Dr。 Martineau had once visited Stonehenge。 〃Avebury is much the oldest；〃 said the doctor。 They must have made Silbury Hill long before 2000 B。C。 It may be five thousand years old or even more。 It is the most important historical relic in the British Isles。 And the most neglected。 〃 They exchanged archaeological facts。 The secret places of the heart rested until the afternoon。 Then Sir Richmond saw fit to amplify his confessions in one particular。 Section 2 The doctor and his patient had discovered a need for exercise as the morning advanced。 They had walked by the road to Marlow and had lunched at a riverside inn； returning after a restful hour in an arbour on the lawn of this place to tea at Maidenhead。 It was as they returned that Sir Richmond took up the thread of their overnight conversation again。 〃In the night；〃 he said； 〃I was thinking over the account I tried to give you of my motives。 A lot of it was terribly out of drawing。〃 〃Facts？〃 asked the doctor。 〃No； the facts were all right。 It was the atmosphere； the proportions。 。 。 。 I don't know if I gave you the effect of something Don Juanesque？ 。 。 。〃 〃Vulgar poem；〃 said the doctor remarkably。〃 I discounted that。〃 〃Vulgar！〃 〃Intolerable。 Byron in sexual psychology is like a stink in a kitchen。〃 Sir Richmond perceived he had struck upon the sort of thing that used to be called a pet aversion。 〃I don't want you to think that I run about after women in an habitual and systematic manner。 Or that I deliberately hunt them in the interests of my work and energy。 Your questions had set me theorizing about myself。 And I did my best to improvise a scheme of motives yesterday。 It was； I perceive； a jerry…built scheme； run up at short notice。 My nocturnal reflections convinced me of that。 I put reason into things that are essentially instinctive。 The truth is that the wanderings of desire have no single drive。 All sorts of motives come in； high and low； down to sheer vulgar imitativeness and competitiveness。 What was true in it all was this； that a man with any imagination in a fatigue phase falls naturally into these complications because they are more attractive to his type and far easier and more refreshing to the mind； at the outset； than anything else。 And they do work a sort of recovery in him； They send him back to his work refreshedso far； that is； as his work is concerned。〃 〃At the OUTSET they are easier；〃 said the doctor。 Sir Richmond laughed。 〃When one is fagged it is only the outset counts。 The more tired one is the more readily one moves along the line of least resistance。 。 。 。 〃That is one footnote to what I said。 So far as the motive of my work goes； I think we got something like the spirit of it。 What I said about that was near the truth of things。 。 。 。 〃But there is another set of motives altogether； 〃Sir Richmond went on with an air of having cleared the ground for his real business； 〃that I didn't go into at all yesterday。〃 He considered。 〃It arises out of these other affairs。 Before you realize it your affections are involved。 I am a man much swayed by my affections。〃 Mr。 Martineau glanced at him。 There was a note of genuine self…reproach in Sir Richmond's voice。 〃I get fond of people。 It is quite irrational； but I get fond of them。 Which is quite a different thing from the admiration and excitement of falling in love。 Almost the opposite thing。 They cry or they come some mental or physical cropper and hurt themselves； or they do something distressingly little and human and suddenly I find they've GOT me。 I'm distressed。 I'm filled with something between pity and an impulse of responsibility。 I become tender towards them。 I am impelled to take care of them。 I want to ease them off； to reassure them； to make them stop hurting at any cost。 I don't see why it should be the weak and sickly and seamy side of people that grips me most； but it is。 I don't know why it should be their failures that gives them power over me； but it is。 I told you of this girl； this mistress of mine； who is ill just now。 SHE'S got me in that way； she's got me tremendously。〃 〃You did not speak of her yesterday with any morbid excess of pity；〃 the doctor was constrained to remark。 〃I abused her very probably。 I forget exactly what I said。 。 。 。〃 The doctor offered no assistance。 〃But the reason why I abuse her is perfectly plain。 I abuse her because she distresses me by her misfortunes and instead of my getting anything out of her； I go out to her。 But I DO go out to her。 All this time at the back of my mind I am worrying about her。 She has that gift of making one feel for her。 I am feeling that damned carbuncle almost as if it had been my affair instead of hers。 〃That carbuncle has made me suffer FRIGHTFULLY。 。 。 。 Why should I？ It isn't mine。〃 He regarded the doctor earnestly。 The doctor controlled a strong desire to laugh。 〃I suppose the young lady〃 he began。 〃Oh！ SHE puts in suffering all right。 I've no doubt about that。 〃I suppose；〃 Sir Richmond went on； 〃now that I have told you so much of this affair； I may as well tell you all。 It is a sort of comedy； a painful comedy； of irrelevant affections。〃 The doctor was prepared to be a good listener。 Facts he would always listen to； it was only when people told him their theories that he would interrupt with his 〃Exactly。〃 〃This young woman is a person of considerable genius。 I don't know if you have seen in the illustrated papers a peculiar sort of humorous illustrations usually with a considerable amount of bite in them over the name of Martin Leeds？ 〃Extremely amusing stuff。〃 〃It is that Martin Leeds。 I met her at the beginning of her career。 She talks almost as well as she draws。 She amused me immensely。 I'm not the sort of man who waylays and besieges women and girls。 I'm not the pursuing type。 But I perceived that in some odd way I attracted her and I was neither wise enough nor generous enough not to let the thing develop。〃 〃H'm；〃 said Dr。 Martineau。 〃I'd never had to do with an intellectually brilliant woman before。 I see now that the more imaginative force a woman has； the more likely she is to get into a state of extreme self…abandonment with any male thing upon which her imagination begins to crystallize。 Before I came along she'd mixed chiefly with a lot of young artists and students； all doing nothing at all except talk about the things they were going to do。 I suppose I profi